Should I breakthrough or stay still for the sake of it?

Been in some kind of situation this days...absolutely not the position of being a Cell Leader, that is job no more but as an identity of a father...

But just these days felt like something I used to have in me...came out from nowhere.. It's been a nightmare to me indeed, I never had a breakthrough on this situation before...as I get hurt deeply on this matter until totally paralyzed, feeling no more towards this kind of situation, really lack of faith on this...But I will never know what will happen if I start to have a breakthrough on this matter..

Maybe something good? Or will like before, paralyzed? I don't know... I used to be fearless...nothing could fear me...but nowadays I found that there is 1 thing that could fear me... That is......

Breakthrough or Stay still?
God...teach me..

Learn to shop!

This morning, mood out of nowhere, go and invite Daniel & Eric to go for shopping at Mid Valley, as I also remembered that I promised I wanna shop with Eric after the camp =D

Then at the mean time, participants increased as Jacky and Hui Yu joined us. Hahaha!! It is niceee shopping today~~

They reach my house at around 11:30 then they wait I go to shower...bla bla....and stuff, then we go and fetch Hui Yu. Then when we reach MV, it's already almost 2. Then we start our "journey" by having Carls JR as our lunch...chit-chat a lot..until almost 3...walao =.="" dunno talk what, lot of things to talk.

Then we go and shop lor, as I wanna buy a coat for myself, just casual coat will good. Then went to Labelsz, G2000, Romp, S&K, Zara, TopMan.....sien, not even 1 is suit. Too bad lar....my size...buy normal T-Shirts or some other kind of shirt may be easy but coat is kinda difficult...but then Eric, Mr. Shopping, intro me to Soda~~ yeah!! I almost forgot there is a shop name Soda! Then I went there lor, walk walk walk...wow? Found a coat not bad wor...quite nice also...dark brown in colour. Most importantly, suits my size leh!! Wahaaha!! Thank God! Finally I found and it is in 50% discount! from 178 discount to RM89!! Hohoho!!

Then after buying that, return to Romp and find Eric lor...who knows when I found him at there, he already decided to buy one set of shirt le...(that felle said he just walk walk and won't buy anything on the car) Zha dao =.="
Maybe "infection" suddenly I go and buy a jeans also leh...as I wanna buy a new jeans as well...so juz go and buy lor...choose lor....choose liao 2 jeans at the beginning, too tight...sien. Then the 3rd one, not bad wor? BUY!! Hahahah!! cost RM89 also....Just like that, I bought a coat and a jeans today. RM200 fly away~~~ 20+ left then makan dinner, almost habish~~~~ hahaha!!!!

Well, once for all, not intend to buy anything high in cost in the coming months...
Nice day I had with my buddies!! =D

We are the end time prophet Elijah!

Book of Prophet Malachi, chapter 4:5-6
["See, I will send you the prophet Elijah before that great and dreadful day of the LORD comes. 6 He will turn the hearts of the fathers to their children, and the hearts of the children to their fathers; or else I will come and strike the land with a curse."]

Just been through a camp that full of the Almighty God's presence. Which is held by our vary own church, GA611 Bread of Life, it is a youth camp. God's presence was just so strong that no one could deny. There are a lot of youth turn their life back to Christ, although there are still people who hasn't believe in Christ yet, but I believe God's love had already take a part of place in their life.

Today which is the last day, I finally found that we do have the hearts of the fathers. My whole group had been together for 4 days and 3 nights, we do all things together, share together, laugh together, pray together, eat together, together together and together!! As I lead them, I found that God had taught me a lesson to learn to have the hearts of the fathers in the end time.

The last session of the camp, it was a sharing among each members in each group. I praise God and thank God that I could see my team members changed from the first day. From we don't know each other, we don't talk to each other, until the end they support each other, helping each other, touched by the Lord one by one, tears fall one by one. Amen!

Until my group members share on stage, both also my beloved members, De Lon and Zhen Wei. I see them both grow in 3 days divinely and seeing them both support and learning from each other. At the end which touch me is, they felt thankful to me. I don't mean to be proud of myself, just God shows me that He had taught me a lesson of the hearts of the fathers in the end time, yes, I learned.

Then when is our turn, the 8 leaders went up on stage to share our thoughts. I have already tried my best to maintain my smileys, to breath deeply every time when I spoke, cause I don't want to cry! I believe the other 6 leaders were trying their best to stay still too. But The second last leader to share, KC, unfortunately, he can't stand and cry out so loud!
Gosh...then 7 of us who was trying our best to stay still can't stand anymore, just release our tension and just cry out loud! Because I knew that we all have the same mind set at the same time!

We miss our members! We love our members! We have compassion on our member! We take them all as our children! We love them!!

We! 8 leaders! Paul, KC, Jacky, ZiKang, Leon, Louis, David, Ming Jun! As I representing them and proclaim! We have the hearts of the fathers of the end time and we will turn our hearts to our children and we do believe our children will turn their heart to us! Amen!

Thanks Daddy on Heaven and Mummy on the earth!!

Hallelujah! I proclaim that the Economy Tsunami won't be a threat to my family!! Amen!!
Hallelujah! Thank God that God has gave abundance life on me and my parents! Amen!!

O.o? Why I said so? Hahah!! Read the post below and you can see how much God loves me and how much my mom loves me! =)

hmm...on last Friday, as my brother got leave on his work, so boring at home so we called mum and go out, then we went to Mid Valley..

Then we walk walk walk... Then suddenly my mind reminded me of what Eric told me, now is the sales season wor....oh yeah...great chance of "masuk stock"....wahahah!!

Then we walk into some shop which we usually won't walk into, because if no sales ar..very expensive de leh. We walk G2000...Giordano...Calvin Klein...Zara...then finally came into SUB... Then we saw a pants not bad wor, is a jeans cut formal pants, eh? the clothing also not bad wor (I can even use that pants to dance on Sunday), then I mai buy lor + a belt....my brother did the same....then the cashier there tell us that the purchase up to RM300 and the next item will have 20% discount. Oh, good, then one of our pants got 20% discount lor. Just like that, SUB earn liao my mum RM480 -.-...

Then we walk again...I ask my mum why don't walk into Jusco, as I know what I want can be found in Jusco...maybe? Then she said:"Haiya, Jusco's thing where can buy one..." I was just like:"oh ok =.=" ....sien

Then dunno why suddenly walk to a shop name called, Timberland. Seriously I been Mid Valley so many times, din't really notice this shop, maybe this shop used to be very quiet? Coz if no sales, their shirt ah...pants ah...shos ah...very expensive de. Then wow? Got sales wor, but then I dun care the shop, coz this shop din't grab my attention at all... Then my mum and my brother went in, suddenly my mum ask me to try a shirt, she said:" Wei, 50% ah, di dao lan(底到烂, Hakka. Means valuable), come try come try." Then I saw a shirt not bad wor, then I go try lor, then buy lor. As I said, those shirt there didn't really grab my attention, so I just buy 1 shirt enough for me. My brother bought 2 shirt, long and short sleeves, but he look nice when he wear it la...coz he thin mar. then 3 shirts which is with 50% discount...RM430. Walao, crazy, dun ever ask me to enter this shop while there is no sales =.=......

Then we balik lor. We count how much we spent while we inside the car, waa....my mum said:"哇。。。你两只野今日tiok左我成千蚊。。" She keep laughing while she say this, we also smile and just keep saying:"Thank you ! Thank you! Hehehehe!" =.=

Then when I go home, I tell my sis, waaa....her eyes also big liao. LoL =.=
Haha...not everytime also like this de la...this is CNY shirt mar...not going to buy any new shirt in few months time...

Then yesterday, which is the main reason why I post this blog. Me, mum, sis and my small little cousin came from Sabah went to 1U. As my sis very hungry..and my brother working at the Digi Specialized Store..then we find him and eat lor. Walao, he work until he is the boss like that, anytime go out, anytime go back. Haha, coz the branch manager there is his long time friend mar, they know each other since form 1 ler....haha, good for him, pity for the company xD
Then we eat at Zan-Mai Japanese Cuisine lor...hmm....next time dun even go there if ur wallet not enough water, there de things ah, small small but expensive. I ordered a Unadon Rice, swt, I tot is a set with soup ah..some Japanese vege ah..and so on. Zha dao, when come, really a Unadon on top of rice. I see liao my reaction was like:"............no more?" Sien ahhh!!
Then the professional eater among 3 of us, Miss Barbara Yap! My sis! Once take up the menu, then just order order order, walao, like already memorize the food list before she came. Sien, when come all liao, waaaaahhh!! Not full at all de loh!! Then we ordered second round.....juz ngam ngam full....my brother also eat until want burst liao =.=

Sien, dun wan post the price, very expensive, 4 adult and 1 12 years old kid can eat until that price. Chi Sin =.=
(My little cousin just eat a Japanese Style Chicken Rice, i also dunno what that called, then full adi, my mum, din eat much as she went on diet. Just the 3 化骨龙 eat a lot. LoL) Happy ! xD

Then after eating my bro went back to his shop...we continue walk walk see see shop shop. Then dunno why walk into MPH bookstore. As I not Daniel Eng, I don't go book store and read books when go to shopping mall xD. Yeah, Daniel End is a smart guy =)

Then suddenly I think that,"Ei? Book store woh, might have what I want here." Then I go find the worker there...and ask,"Do you have Chinese and English version Bible?" Then that guy go and get it for me. Wahahaha!!! Finally I got my double language Bible!!! Which I want it for so long since last year!! Just always got not enough money to buy....hahah!! My mum bought it for me!! Wahahaha!!! it cost RM94 leh...thanks mum!!!

Just 4 days time my mum had already spent around RM550 on me ler..!! So happy leh... But then after this, what my mum going to buy for me is soon a extra expensive thing la...not going to say it out first. dunno what she will buy.
Thanks Mum!!

2 Days 1 Night in Dusun Eco

Wow....it was absolutely a great time I had spent with Calvin's Cell Members...it was totally great...exciting and enjoyment! =)

This is actually a retreat camp for Calvin's Cell Group...and there are total of 10 of us who went this time, no girls, all boys. Hahahah!!!

Once we reach there, Calvin check in and get the room, then we change little bit of our clothing, then guess what? We walk into the forest straight away, without any guards from the Dusun Eco leading us, we just began our first activity like that.

It is very funny on this first activity, we walked in, don't know the path, just try and find out what is the path, and then suddenly Jacky became the one who lead instead of ZiKang, guess what? He lead us back to the starting point -_-|||
Because there are 2 entrance in the starting point, a left and a right, we first enter the right hand side one then came out from the left hand side one. Swt! It was totally swt la....hahaah! But is kinda funny on that scene =D

Then we walk back inside, found the other way to continue our "adventurous", then we saw a sign board giving 2 directions, 1 way is a short path, around 1 hour then it's finish and the other path is the long one, it takes 2 hours to finish the whole journey. Absolutely we choose the long one, and finally take us 2 hours plus to get out from the jungle tracking adventure!

Then the 2 famous "monkey", ZiKang and Louis open the way and lead us, both of them jump up and down, impressed that they don't seems like they look tired. During the path was tough...not easy, and then I believe Calvin's blood is clean and pure and sweet and it's "attractive"! He is the lucky star of the day! Who kena LEECH on his leg first in 10 of us! Hahaha!! Pastor memang Pastor....kena also he kena first...haha! Lucky he brought salt and once the leech kena the salt, it drop and "dancing" on the floor. Then we continue our path, no longer again, Calvin feels some itchy in his socks again. Wow? leech again la!! Waahhh...2 times liao eeehhh...then salt again...then drop and dance....then we continue.. Who knows, just a while, Calvin shout again, walao =.=" sien liao, kena again on his leg, 3 times!! Then that time I think got no salt left or what, the problem solve. Then keep on got ppl kena kena kena....hahaha!!! So funny, I thought I'm the luckiest person who didn't get bite by the leech, so I shout loudly:"Haiya! My skin and blood, leech also cannot bite la!".........Who knows, when we reach the exit, waiting for the others to come, a leech stick on Louis' shoe(lucky him did not get bitten), then I quickly check my shoe also, thank God, there is no leech on my shoe......BUT THERE IS A FAT FAT LEECH WHICH SUCKING MY BLOOD THROUGH MY SOCKS!!! Then I shouted loudly:"WAAALAAAOOO !!!!!" So FAT LEECH like I saw on the television!!! Then that monkey Louis just pluck it away....(because no salt on that time, no choice lo), then the leech gone....but my leg bleed...the blood never stop until the night time sharing still bleeding....sien -.-


But I think KC is the worst among us. Because if the leech bites you, you don't feel pain, and if you sensitive enough, u will feel itchy, like Calvin does. Then FINALLY KC felt something inside his shoe...quite itchy...then when he take off his shoes, thr right leg, walao, u never want this happen on you. 4 leech on his leg and the leech is FAT FAT FEEDED!! Then the leech goes away cause already FULLY FEED, but poor KC's sock has become a "red sock".....really red man.....

P/S: This lesson teaches us, bring more salt when u enter the jungle and...DON'T WALK INSIDE IF IT IS UNNECESSARY!!

Then at night we have our sharing time among each others...it was good, enjoy and finally I can feel back the days before I am a cell leader, so nice sharing each others in the cell group, learn together, grow together, share together, pray together, eat together, stay together, sleep together, talk together, laugh together, and play together!! Yeah!!

Then, I find a childhood feeling over there when I saw the geese. It reminds me of my childhood days in the kampung, I holding a stick and chase the chickens and ducks. It was so so happy.... Then when I saw the geese, it remind me of my childhood....haha...so miss it =D
Not only that, the geese makes me think of a type of KungFu fist, the Crane Fist! When I saw that geese then I make the fist style of the crane(ask me to show you if you dunno and you're interested), then dunno why KC so exciting about the style, he keep on laughing when I do that style =.= kai wan xiao -.-

However, this is a very very good trip I went so far, very enjoy. Of course there are still many activities we went through but I lazy to type la...will never know how long it is if i type it out...haha...

*~Happy~*

Prophet Cindy Jacob's sermon during the Ring of Fire Convergence in Jakarta 2008 (just a 10 minutes video grabbed from YouTube)

Power of Holiness - Cindy Jacob

.....The river of God was pure. Many years ago I had a vision, and I had a vision of God that this river was pure and so beautiful, and I was just enjoying looking at this river. And I saw people come to the edge of the river, and forgive me this is the very graphic thing I saw. But I saw they throw up in the river(vomit), and I saw they throw garbage from their house into the river, and that was completely polluted. And I said,"What is that?" He(God) said this is people's jealousies, fighting against each other, illegal sexual sense, and the church, Idolatry. And nations. And I saw this river flow and I saw the people and the children getting into that river. And they were singing worships songs. You know in my days "I got a river flowing" some kind of songs, "Oh let it rain! Let it poured! Jesus!". And they got into that dirty river, and they were like drinking it and pouring it on themselves, but the river was polluted! But nobody knows, because they used to the taste of pollution. They didn't know what pure water taste like. And this vision I had I saw the body of Christ get out of the river and fall asleep at the river edge, nobody care what it happen to the river. And there is river flow down and i saw tree a side the river. And there was a part of this vision I don't understand until just tonight. I saw fruit on the streets, I realize what the fruit represent, was character, is holiness, is the fruit of Holy Spirit, be patience, is non suffering, is kindness, is holiness. And without holiness we won't see God.

And then after while I saw this river flow, and I saw just a couple of come and build a big water purification plan. I believe, that vision I had is for this moment. I believe it represent your generation. it say:

"We not gonna have a polluted river, we're not gonna drink dirty water, we are gonna clean it up, we gonna love each other, we are gonna walk together in unity, we are not gonna be jealous, we are not gonna sex before marriage, we are not gonna be drunken, we are gonna be different."

And so I saw them build this purification plan. And I saw just a little while the water is coming out from the plan. Very pure. Finally is like Ezekiel 47 it says, out of the temple came pure water. The water came to their knees and the water came so high until they can swim in the water.

And in this vision I began to hear laughter. I saw it is coming from children in the river, and I understand this. Listen to me, the next generation, if you obey God, if you do what God says, you will clean up what my(Cindy Jacob) generation did. And you are going to prepare the children greatest revival the earth has ever seen.
But you have to sainttify yourself. Time of judgment to begin in the house of God. God wants to use you as a chosen generation. He wants you to be part of group that say "Holy Holy Holy who is the God Lord Almighty"(Book of Revelation). Saintify yourself.

And the Lord shows me there is supernatural anointing in this generation to set people free from every kind of addiction. Addiction to drugs, alcohol, sexual addictions, homosexuality, bisexuality, is time to clean up the river, is time to clean up the media. Now I don't know how you follow over here but you probably watch American movies and television. When Madonna kiss Britney Spears, she red her life. There was a spirit of bisexuality that loose upon your generation and lesbianism.

And I want to tell you something tonight, if your generation doesn't rise up, there is gonna be a God's judgment reigns to the earth and unspeakable!

Be Holy, be holy! Saintify yourself! Because tomorrow God will do wonders!


*That is all in this 10 minutes video clip.*
Thank God just only 10 minutes, it take me 30 minutes to do this, hope will help you readers, Amen.

Finally...thank God....

Today, first time leading Worship so long since I lead Praise for a month....
Thank God, this this truly a time managed by God.

Because the days when I was leading praise, I always seek for feedback or comments from my leader, so that I will be able to improve myself. Yeah, thank God that God leads me not bad in praise. But I also receive comment from my Cell Leader, thank God =)

Then tonight, first day IP. David back from Hong Kong and speak on GA Youth, I can feel that his anointing and his spirit has grown up greatly. There are something different during his sermon than before, not a big difference, maybe there isn't any difference in the way he talk. But still, there is difference, and it is good.

Then today the first time I lead worship. Not that I want to lead worship then I told Daniel that I want to lead worship. It's there is a touch in me and Daniel that I wants to lead worship.(Maybe there is a touch in Daniel, I don't know, but when I ask Daniel whether I can lead worship this Saturday or not, he said that he is just going to tell me to lead).

However, just right after the service, IP. David just call all the P&W-per and Emcees go on stage and giving us feedback. What I could say is the feedback and comment is a great impact for me and thank God that God wants me to learn how to worship Him! Hallelujah! Finally my dream have come true! What I always look for, what I always ask for, just right today, God give it to me via IP. David! Amen !!

Then just now when I bathing, God so love me....that He said a word that I don't even understand at the moment.

"Receiving feedback and comments, is another way of compliment."

Thank God....finally I understood what this word means....
Which means, while you are doing good, there is another way of telling you that you are doing good instead of giving you comments.

Hallelujah! Thank God!

A chat - A Learned - A Divine Discipleship

I've been told that I must write down this message, I don't know why, maybe it's just to remind myself when I read this post in the future, don't know, but I just obey the One who taught me and just post it down right now.
I got this when I went to gym yesterday and suddenly out of no where my mind keep on thinking about the street evangelism in the past days, why we all like doing nothing, yes, we do gain experience, but we can do more than just gaining experience. With the spirit of God, who knows? And I found out that we even attended a class about how to spread the gospel and reaching out to the others. Yes, it is good to attend the class, but that is just the formula to spread the gospel, what I could say is, it didn't work at all, yes, at all.
I got a title divinely when I was on the running machine.

The title is: Learn Evangelistic through the book of Acts.

Let me briefly explain what I know about the beginning of the book of Acts. Book of Acts is the book which Jesus Christ Himself back to heaven (Acts 1:9). Before He went back to heaven, the last word He said to His disciples, which is a scripture that we all know very well and familiar with,

[But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth."]

Do you ever realize that after Jesus said that word, there is no chance for His disciples to ask how the Holy Spirit is gonna fill upon them and what will happen when the Holy Spirit fill upon them. There is no chance for them to how they gonna witness God's work. I believe there is a lot of question in the disciples on that days, I don't know, but if I was there, seriously I won't understood. But praise God, in chapter 2, the Holy Spirit fill upon the people on the Pentecost day, and everyone speak in tongue.(Nah, not gonna explain about this.)

And then what to do with we gonna spread the gospel and testify God you might say, yes, there is related with verse 8 of chapter 1. We MUST fill with the Holy Spirit everyday and single hour DAILY and let His work done in us and there will be testimony for God, then there goes testifying for God!

Conclude of the first criteria,
Fill with the Holy Spirit in our live and let the Holy Ghost done His work on us, and let us testify the result of His work.

Secondly, the power from Holy Spirit. (So as in verse 8) What kind of power will we receive from the Holy Ghost? Of course it included spiritual gifts and spiritual position. But I just saying 1 result of the power here is, the power of spreading the gospel as known as evangelism. When we have the first criteria in us, filled with the Spirit of God, we will have the power at the same time as well, to testify for God!
See, it is related! When we receive the power and we testify WITH the power, the scenario in Acts chapter 2:41 will happen.(Open up the bible and read it yourself, not gonna post, as you open the bible by yourself, you will remember it.)

Conclude for the second criteria,
Receive the power from God as we filled with the Holy Spirit and testify WITH the power.

Thirdly, what kind of attitude must we carry when we evangelistic(spreading the gospel) to the others, it's the attitude of GIVING.
Acts chapter 3 verse 6 :[Then Peter said, "Silver or gold I do not have, but what I have I give you. In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, walk."]
I don't meaning that when you walking on the street, and you saw someone who is crippled, you say the same word to that person. Yes if the Holy Spirit told you so. But what Peter was doing here? He is filled with the Holy Spirit, he has the power came from Holy Spirit, so what he did? He saw a crippled beggar and ask him to stare at him. And this, is as known as APPROACHING. Then the scenario of verse 6 happens.

Conclude of the third criteria,
Approach and give.

The forth, which is what we all need, boldness.
In the scenario of chapter 4, Peter and John face against the Sanhedrin. They were forced not to spread the gospel and the people threaten Peter and John, however, WITH the glory and grace of God, both of them did not being punished because there is no way to punish them.

After that, Peter and John beg for boldness from Jesus Christ.
Acts 4:29
[Now, Lord, consider their threats and enable your servants to speak your word with great boldness.]

I was thinking, even Jesus' disciples, whom follow Jesus and live with Jesus, crying out for boldness. We shall cry out for boldness either.

Conclude of forth criteria,
HUMBLE yourself before God and CRY out for BOLDNESS from God.

Lastly, which we are always been told but yet to do so, A UNITY OF PRAYERS.
Acts chapter 2:42;46-47 (open up .the love letter from God and read it so that you can be reminded.)
Here says that the disciples are having fellowship together, having the PRAYER time TOGETHER, always MEET TOGETHER and PRAISE GOD TOGETHER. This is what we seriously lack of! I believe when I try to say this out, there will be a lot of common response which is, "This is life,","Sometimes is not necessary,","We can do it although lack of these,","Don't worry, have faith on God."
That is why I post in on my blog

Amen

I do not dare to say that what I'm writing here is 100% acceptable and correct, but at least I share what I learned and is biblical.

Hit me back with comments, Amen.

Tagged by a Boy and a Girl

1. How old are you?
# 18

2. Are you single?
# yup, why interested?

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?
# age around 26-->28

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
# hmm...single wor

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
# my future wife

6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding?
# probably a romantic and classical wedding will do. Once in a life mar

7. Your ideal motif?
# hmm...funny, mature minded, smile always

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
# urm...Gold Coast? or some where else romantic which pleased my dear dear

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
# dunno wor, depends on how wide is my public relationship is lor

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
# a special one =) Ever see wedding hip hop dance?? wahaha!!!

11. Do you want the tradition vows or something you’d make up on your own?
# hmm....no idea abt this

12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
# 7 ba....hohoho

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
# hotel would be good? =D

14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
# in the night...

15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
# i prefer indoor...

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your bride?
# wakakaka!! of cozzzzz!! that is her proudest moment! for marrying a guy like me!! =X

17. Name the song/tune you’d like at your wedding?
# a song with lyrics written about me and my dear

18. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
# apa meaning light one?

19. What age do you want to get married?
# refer to question 3 by urself. "duh!"

20. Describe your ideal husband/wife.
# mature in minded...can share things...dun hide anything from me...most importantly..love me =D

21. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
# dining =)

22. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
# if it's able...i prefer days after wedding

23. Money or household item?
# same as Nixon, money to buy item

24. Who will pay for the bills?
# see who is faster to take out their wallet lor. hahaha!!

25. Are you ready for married life?
# ask this again 10 years later

26. Will you always be true to your wife/husband?
# of corz...my soul mate leh...how can i lie to her leh?

27. How many kids do you like?
# 3 ba...or 2 also can =)

28. Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
# if God allows me to celebrate diamond wedding...is ok de

29. What kind of cuisine would you like for you wedding?
# urmm...as long as my dear is happy, is ok with me =)

30. Will you record your honeymoon in a CD or DVD?
# yup, my kids will love to watch it

31. I tag:
# Jessica
# Joshua Andy Chong
# Daniel
# KC
# De Lon
# Kenneth
# David Kong
# Eric Teo (hohoho!! u will never miss out in my tag posts!! wahahha!!)

Now is the time

Today during youth pre-service prayer....can felt God's presence was so strong... Until I couldn't control myself and pray...LOUDLY...
Now recall it back...felt like myself is scolding people...really very loud...din really used to that...never try to pray so loud before....but well, as long as I believe my prayer could reach the throne...that will be OK...

What I felt is God wants us not only promise and commitment, God wants us to take action. Seriously, now is the time to take action since so long prayerS. I can felt that God's presence is so strong today, and now is the time, for us, GA Youth to arise and get out from out comfort zone, having a great breakthrough, and win the souls. No more further excuse for us to say that we could not invite any friends to join the camp. The prayer has sent to God's throne and God has approved our prayer, now what we must do is taking a action. I believe while we dare to make a step forward, that will be a breakthrough. And God is with us, I believe in God, because He is the God whom do miracles.

I believe in miracle, because I believe in the almighty God.

Bye dance team

Out of expectations...Phoebe Heng finally allows me to quit from the dance team...What a great and correct decision she has made....Praise God...

In the past was quit for once, but that time is because of some matter, so I quit, but regret for missed a nice dance.

But this time, I have think twice, I don't find any further meaning for me to stay in the dance team. This dancing team is special, really special made by God. And those who are really want to worship God with their dancing gift, really a great blessing to join in this team.

I do not deny that I have no gift in dancing art, but I couldn't find any correct attitude in me to continue in the dancing team, dance for God. I don't want to carry a wrong attitude on the stage as well in the team. Since I do not carry the correct attitude while in dance for Christ, no point I staying in there.

Although it's quite hard for me...quite sad actually...miss those laughing voices...but however, a correct attitude is always the first priority in everything I do..if I do not serve God with all my heart on the stage and off the stage, then i better don't serve God, because He is almighty.

God Bless GA Dance Team
Faith...Hope...Love...
Greatest thing is Love...
Love you all always...

Hope of Nations

Hey guys, this is actually my poem for my english assignment in the college, do give some comments ya =)
(Unfortunately my lecturer doesn't accept it, and I have to type a new one out, but however, I decide to keep this vary first poem. Although it is verses from the Bible, but I do love this poem =D )

Still remember at the ninth hour,
He cried out n a loud voice to His Father;
"Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?"
Meaning of"My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"

Yet the people thought,
He has stricken by God;
He was despised and rejected by men,
He was despised, and we esteemed Him not.

But He was pierced for our transgressions,
Crushed for our iniquities;
The punishment that brought us peace was upon Him,
By His wounds we are healed.

Suddenly the curtain of the temple was torn into two,
From top to the bottom;
People who stood there and saw He dead,
Said loudly,"Surely this man was the Son of God!"

When the Sabbath was over,
They found that the stone have been rolled;
As they entered the tomb,
They saw a young man dressed in a white robe;
Who was and who is and who is to come,
His name, Jesus Christ the Son of God.

Love God's will in GA more and more!!

Today just finished the Encounter Camp...it was good overall, I quite like it. As I expected, Holy Spirit do work out strongly, can truly feel His presence to strong today during the class of Baptism of Holy Spirit. Jesus just stand before me and I could feel I grab His leg and hug His feet. But I could not lift up my head and look at Him.....His glory is so strong....and I just want to wash His feet...that's all. It's such a real encounter with God..praise God that I could able to feel His presence so strongly, while I walk away from my seat, wipe all my tears, sitting behind and was trying cool down myself. However, when I'm cooled down, I walk back to my seat, I started to whip again. Cool....God is great...

And today's sermon was brilliant!! Refer to last week and this week, I can see that this 2 weeks God is doing a same thing in us, God is molding the Youth Army straight forwardly through sermons. Pastor Esther's sermon was different 2 weeks ago, and the youth sermons this 2 weeks, is different that before, is quite a serious topic, I believe this is God's feeling towards the Youth Army.

However, I like it, I enjoy it, I LOVE IT.

Looking forward to Youth Encounter Camp!

2moro is the youth first time ever encounter camp since the GA Teens encounter camp in year 2006, that was the first encounter camp i ever join. And 2moro, it's gonna be the 2nd time I joining the encounter camp, not just with the previous teens, but a gang of youths!!

What I am looking forward on to this encounter camp this time is, after this encounter camp, there will be a lot of GA Armies rise up for Jesus Christ and win this generation for the name of Jesus Christ. Deliverance, healing of broken spirit/broken heart, fired up by the Spirit of God, miracle healing, gifting, visions, dreams, goals. I believe that God's will on this generation is to form a Generation with Vision.

Proverbs 29:18
Where there is no revelation, the people cast off restraint; but blessed is he who keeps the law.

I believe God wants every single army of His to have visions and dreams, without that, we will cast off restraint! This is the living word of God to this generation! Amen!

A sudden touch!

A sudden touch during the previous posting.

There is nothing that could stop the GA Armies in this generation moving forward for the name of Jesus Christ.

2 years ago, when I first reach GA611, I can definitely feel God's presence is so strong in this church, the presence of a fatherly love to His vary own beloved child. He is so pleased that His beloved child came back to his Sanctuary and worship Him, seek His face and care for what He cares.

Since that time, my spirit is fulfill with the Spirit of God. And the visions, the growing towards maturity, gifts and a lot of blessings has begin entering my life, that is which made the present me. There is absolutely a vision and a message from God for GA611 BOL, included GA Youth. Remember the April of 2008, I attended a class by Rev. Daniel Ho, which is a prophetic class. During a lesson, he ask us to practice to listen and pay attention on what God is gonna tell us daily in our life. God spoke to us not just by His servant, His prophecy, His sermon and so on. God do speak to us via area, advertisement, media, economy, words even from non believe friends and so on. On that practical day, I walk out to the street with Rev. Daniel Ho, when I first realize that our church is in section 13/1, Jalan Bersatu....when I look at this address name, I receive a message from God in book of Isaiah chapter 13. Seriously, when I open up my bible and read on it, I believe that God really wants to use GA611 in Malaysia to bring up the revival for the name of Jesus Christ.

I believe this is what GA will do for the almighty God in the end time, GA armies will rise up for the name of Jesus Christ, for the vision from mother church (Isaiah 61:1). I believe every single of GA611 member will turn the nation and bring down the glory for the name of Jesus Christ.

Latest of myself

These days are like in kind of situation of peace....although the final exam is very near and seems like it's approaching...still there is no fear inside me...am I really that fearless until I don't even dear about my final exam? Or I am just paralyzed with this kind of feeling...Well I don't know, maybe I am just stubborn, stubborn in my very own mind that what I always want is theology but not in business studies, stubborn in my own vision....or sort to say, was trying very hard to overcome nowadays...doing something which I don't really like to....being in a situation which I don't really want to.... I promise myself that I will go for theology straight away after my diploma 2 years later, probably will be going to Agape Renewal Center (ARC) in USA and complete my dream over there. But what I do after I finish ARC? I believe God will lead me the way after I graduated from ARC. And God will use me.

Tagged by Ci & Rachie =)

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
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1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be? take revenge?
heart broken lor....but i will definitely ask the reason why she betrays me....

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
Pastoring a church with 10,000 youths..

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Billions?!?! Build the Joy & Praise City 1st lahhhhh!!!

5. Will you u fall in love with your best friend?
most probably will lar....good friend comes before couple mar.....

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being Loved

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
I duno de wor....i only couple in the age of 22....how long intend to wait ar....until 23 gua...if no then no choice de mar..

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
keep the good relationship up....and wait until the time comes...

9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
actress is the best....but depends...

10. Will you invite for Ex bf/gf to your wedding dinner?
hmm...my next target will be my wife wor...and i no couple be4, so no ex lor. Heheheh

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
28 ar? A Youth Pastor

12. What’s your fear?
Fearless/Nothing

13. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Married & Blessed

15. Would you give all in a relationship?
Yes I always DO

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
This is not gonna happen....coz I will only love one

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
forgive but its hard to forget....cuz horrible thingy is unremovable in memory la...

18.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
Single for now, relationship for 22

tags:

1. KC
2.Kenneth
3.Ah Kit
4.Ah Dan
5.Enoch
6.Eric

Yes....a confirmation...

Praise God...Praise God...Praise God...Praise God...Praise God!!!
Give all the glory to Your name! Your name to be praised!!

I thank God for today He spoke to me...to my heart...my spirit.... I can felt His presence so strong today ever since the worship started... I want to cry like the others did, but I can't, because I got no tears to fall...maybe God wants me to learn that other than falling tears, there are still other ways that I can honor God's presence...yeah...I learned today, Hallelujah!

Then today, when Rev. Esther pray for the catcher team and PnW Team...I'm part of it, God keep on spoke to me while I'm being prayed. Unfortunately I cannot release out what God spoke to me, but I believe the message I received it's from God, because it is biblical.

And I believe God want to do big things in PnW Team, there are gonna be some changes, I can feel it.

Being a PnW Leader is just part of my destiny...there are more ahead of my life..
As God has already helps me to get rid of what it is unnecessary in my life, my destiny, truly, seriously, has just began........

Getting closer and closer to You!!

Days after the incident I met....I really do had a great lesson of my life...I learn from the problem... Again I thank God for the incident happens, it really makes me feel I'm closer and closer with You, Jesus Christ my God.
And I believe these all are the beginning of my destiny, I think I already know what should I do.

Thank you God, the incident really makes me grew a lot, appreciate it.

This is the 2nd time I lead praise in GA Youth, praise God once again, I can feel His presence and I received a comment from my cell member, De Lon, it was a great encouragement for me, but so, still there are a lot of space for me to improve!! Hallelujah!

satan, u're defeated

Praise the Lord !!
Readers, as you guys can tell what is going on with me, so I don't need to give anymore intro on this post today.

But what I can say this time is, YES !! satan has been defeated!!
I really had a bad days few days ago.....can't really slept well at night...thinking this and that... Because I had seriously hurt somebody I don't really meant to...
Somehow, God does a miracle between us. I know I'm wrong...because I really hurt her seriously..then I apologize. Through the apologize made, I think God did spoke to her....Well, everything goes fine...smooooooth...And I realize that this matter happens really helps both of us a lot. We learns a great lesson, and most importantly, I knowing each other more and more....praise God...

Father I thank You with all my heart, my spirit and my strengths. Because You had made this happens and God You teach me a great lesson of my life, although there are struggle, sadness and pain in the process, still You made a way and deliver us from pain. Thank You Lord, You are worth to be praised! I will praise your name forever!! Hallelujah!!

Oh our heavenly Father!
Hallowed be Your name!
Thy kingdom come!
Thy will be done!!
Hallelujah!

First time.....I did something so regret in my life...

最近发生了一些不愉快的事情，不知道什么原故，但我认为发生这件事情是一定会带来某些方面的改变。。有好，亦有不好。。。。

在一个交谈当中，我释放了一些内心话，而这些内心话却把整个原本的交谈题目改换了成为另外一个交谈题目。与此同时，在这交谈过程中，我无意的伤害了我最心爱的人。。。在这一瞬间里面，一个普通的交谈里面，我严重的伤害了我心里面一直以来最爱的，最想保护的，最支持的，最任何时候都义不容辞的，最不想让她受到伤害的人。。。我伤害了这个人。。

虽然口说没关系之类的话语，但是我深知她心里是非常的伤痛的。。。

一句无意的话。。。成为了
一句无心的伤害。。。
一句无形的伤害。。。
一个后悔的伤害。。。。。。。




曾经有一段真挚的爱情摆在我面前，我没有好好的去珍惜，等到失去时才后悔莫及。人生最悲哀的事情莫过于此。如果上帝可以再给我一次重来的机会，我会对那个女孩说三个字：我爱你。如果要我在这段感情加上一个期限，我希望是一万年！

Once there was true love for me but I did not cherish it.When it slipped away between my fingers, I began to regret. That is the saddest thing in life. If God could give me a second chance, I would tell the girl,"I love you!". If there should be a time limit on this love, I wish it would be 10，000 years.

We are overcomers!!

00:22 a.m. October 28th, Tuesday

Hallelujah! Praise the Lord!! This is a new beginning for me as I have just overcome a big problem in me...I don't know why either...every time, after a short conversation, surely my problems will just fade away, is it so strong the power is? Until it can removed the feelings of death just by a conversation. Anyway, still I need to praise God!! For this time, I used just 1 day to overcome all my darkness inside me. At least now, I became back the true Paul which is a character of God want me to be. And I believe, God will work out on the contract I sign with Him. I never doubt about it.

These days....

These days are actually quite stress....especially when I attended the Business Maths class....seriously... I will headache...really... For a person who did not study maths for such a long time counting in the secondary school days.....at least it been 4 or 5 years I did not learn any maths... Oh God....maths really difficult for me....
Other subjects I can said it's just a piece of ice-cream cake....easy to digest...but business maths is tough for me.....
But this is not the main point....the main point is... What I wanna study is Theology...but not Business or bla bla bla......this course....Diploma in Business...reason I take because 1st, it's cheapest of all, 2nd, I don't know what I love to study except Theology, so I choose this.

New Learned !! Hehe =D

A Sample Picture of first learned posting

Hmm....just learned to upload picture on blog.. Thanks to Jessey teaching me ya....keke^^
Hurray~~!!

Getting Worse....why there is so many prob with my body...

I am a guy.... a guy with a lot of problems on my physical body.... A rough dry skin... body that cannot stand in a high temperature place... natural shiny nails.. weird strength on my right hand that cannot control.. and then now....new things... my right knee pain out of sudden...dun know why, when i straighten my right leg, my knee will get pain..................very pain

Haiz.... I also dun wanna care too much about it....really lots of problem to care... tired of it... just believing that I could have a new structured body in the heaven....once I back to my home....which where I'm suppose to stay....

Oil out of nowhere

11th of October, 2008 - This is the first day I lead worship at GA Youth and.....also miracle of anointed SPIRITUALLY by PHYSICALLY.

Day before today, I practice to lead worship everyday when I walking back home from college. Keep on practicing... keep on learning divinely... And then tonight... Praise God!! God helps me on my leading tonight!! Praise God for that!!

Returning back to my title, after I went back home after the service, I get into the bath room, unclothes, I felt my body is COVER WITH OIL!! Then I keep on to recall myself, whether did I get my body sweat during my worship time (people who close to me knows that I don't get sweat easily), and if I sweat, my body should be sticky but not oily! And while I'm thinking, suddenly a voice came to me," This is the anointing of God." Praise the Lord of Host !!! Thank You in the name of Jesus Christ! This is the first time ever I experienced the anointing of God physically and it is so true!! I can never deny this experience I had. It's just too true!!

But then I still have a word in my mind that is, " There are still a lot of space for me to improve myself !!"

Special thanks to Hanna & Lilian for both of them teach me a lot about leading song last time... Really appreciate them a lot.

Hallelujah!

第二次的觉醒 !

最近经历了许多的试探，许多的挣扎....而且我也承认我自己确实输了这一次的试探...输的彻底...但这永远都是一件好事！因为我输了的关系，我浪费了许许多多的时间在不必要的事务上！！而这让我的生命里又有了一个重大的突破！

我在这里公开承认我的软弱，读者别以为希奇，因为这是上帝让我作见证的开始！

两个星期前, 我似乎对我教会的一位弟兄产生了邪恶感。当我看见他的时候，我脑海就会浮现出他生气骂人的样子，因为我非常记得他那生气的样子，我自己也不喜欢看见那个样子，怎知道我脑海不断地浮现出那个样子来。。。直到一个地步我对他产生了邪恶感。不但如此，我还曾经邪恶到一个状况就是心里不断的想着，“我在等你开口骂人，你一骂人我就跟你来个没完没了！”。读者听起来很恐怖吧？说真的，我现在回想起来的时候，我觉得很恐怖，因为，那不是我。

但是经过了一次out of expectation的对话之后，我觉醒了。。。原来我眼睛瞎了，我眼睛完全被恶者用邪恶的布包扎了！！我很想衷心对他说对不起。。但是有些时候，没必要说得就不需要说出来，衷心来到神面前认罪悔改就可以了。这是对的。神释放了我！哈里路亚！

我相信当我们愿意给的时候，神就会给我们！阿门？
我相信当我愿意原谅曾经伤害过我，让我留下深刻印象而产生邪恶感的弟兄的时候，神也会原谅我而且会提升我！因为耶稣说，当我们原谅别人的时候，天上的父也必会原谅我们；当我们不原谅别人的时候，天上的父也必照样报应我们。这显明了神的爱和公义！

哈里路亚！愿神祝福读者，让读者看过这见证后，永存着一个警醒的灵人！阿门！

Tagged by Nixon

3 names you go by:
- Paul
- Dai Gao (大旧)
- Everlasting (永恒)

3 screen names you hav had:
- Paul
- Fore Runner
- Spirit Breaker

3 physical things you like about urself:
- arm(strong)
- body(size)
- fingernails(natural shiny)

3 physical things you dont like about urself:
- skin
- lips
- leg

3 parts of ur heritage:
- not much money left
- DNA
- temper

3 things that scare you:
- nothing scares me

3 of ur everyday essentials:
- computer
- shower
- keep fit

3 things you r wearing now:
- specs
- mini short pants
- underwear

3 of ur favourite bands or music arts:
- Hill Songs United
- Planet Shakers
- Classical

3 physical things about the preferred sex that appeals 2 u:
- long haired
- the eye....
- height

3 of ur hobbies:
- write song lyric
- gym
- badminton(although I'm not good in it)

3 things you wanna do really badly right now:
- sleep
- have someone to talk to
- take a look at heaven and hell

3 careers you’re considering / considered b4:
- businessman
- car technician
- assassin

3 places you want go on vacation:
- Hong Kong
- Hawaii
- Pangkor Island

3 things you want to do b4 u die:
- be a successful pastor
- build a strong army church
- do my best to bring down God's Kingdom

5 ppl that u would like to see take this quiz now
- Daniel
- Lilian
- Jane
- Carmen
- Joey

Another learning of mine.

I had to admit that I'm in such a comfort zone these days until I did not really study the bible. And then today, God Himself touch me and talk to me through His word, He is so real.

John 6:60~69
60On hearing it, many of his disciples said, "This is a hard teaching. Who can accept it?"

61Aware that his disciples were grumbling about this, Jesus said to them, "Does this offend you? 62What if you see the Son of Man ascend to where he was before! 63The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you are spirit and they are life. 64Yet there are some of you who do not believe." For Jesus had known from the beginning which of them did not believe and who would betray him. 65He went on to say, "This is why I told you that no one can come to me unless the Father has enabled him."

66From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him.

67"You do not want to leave too, do you?" Jesus asked the Twelve.

68Simon Peter answered him, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. 69We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God."

From these scriptures I learn a lot and my eyes was open in this afternoon. Suddenly 2 pictures came out from my mind.

I saw a man dry up very quickly who did not stay close to his source.
I saw a group of people who loves God very much in the outside but they're so dry inside.

I have to say this, the man, is me. Yes, it's me. These days when I felt I did not stay clock with my source of life, I do felt my spirit is dry up, really dry up. Until a situation felt like myself is in a desert, looking for a spring. But today Jesus spoke to me via His word, He tells me that live in flesh is count for nothing! And the word Jesus spoke to me, is spirit, is life! And here, Jesus also repeated again that walking in to the gate of heaven, it is a must to have a permission or sort to say enabled by The Father. But in what kind of situation only we are enabled? Which is, a close relationship with God, and we are enabled! Just that simple! As we always heard a slogan which says: There is no relationship between the relationship had nothing to do with the relationship between. (有关系就没有关系，没有关系就有关系) Amen ?

And I doesn't want to simply explain the second picture I saw. But I do have a feeling which is Jesus really wants to say to His people, "Is the word of the Lord offended you? Is it really that difficult to understand or is it really unacceptable for you?" I think we do really have to self-examination. Do we have this feeling sometimes? A feeling which hurt Jesus Christ? We know Jesus always had a great love and mercy on us, but did we hurt Him? Did we grumbling about what Jesus thought us? Well, of course I'm not trying to say we are bad until like this....but at least what I know is, GA Youth, including myself, still have a bigger dimention to improve and know more in the word of God, and this is a positive, ain't negative. Praise God for this!

Must Love but can't fall in love

Jesus replied: "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind" Matthew 22:37

These all days has been really really searching for a greater breakthrough in my life....I don't wanna live like before...the days I just receive the Lord Jesus Christ...it's useless to live in a life without breakthrough...I WANT A GREATER BREAKTHROUGH...

So seems like these days, the power of the first ever life time covenant I made with God during September year 2007 is coming clear....clear...and clear. Since of this, I do believe this power of this covenant will coming to be MORE CLEAR in the upcoming days...

Why do I repeat like this? Reason is because the covenant I made is I want to concentrate on God and just love Him and no others in this coming 5 years, everything for His sake, He is the always the first I care. Care of what? Care of His feeling, God is kind and mercy, He won't get mad on me, but He will sad and cry because of me. Lot of times I did not care about God's feeling and I even hurt Him deeply as I did something really dislikes Him. I felt sorry for what I did before the Lord. And now, I just wanna say, Father, I LOVE YOU..... So since the power of the covenant is clearer now, I found that I couldn't fall in love with other girls anymore.... During the days, I always flirty and the kind of guy like easy going, just go after on whom I interested on. But I found out I can not do that anymore! It not paralyzed about the feeling, it's not bored, it's just I cant !! Which makes me believe this is the time God want to change me and what I must do now is cooperate with God and let His will be done on me. Amen

Content of the covenant made on September Year 2007:
Lord please help me to know you more as you love me deeply. Lord let me die for your name, but I need to trained up by you Lord, I'm weak and Your name is strong Lord. Lord we make this covenant to stand for 5 years, in this coming 5 years, I want to just simply love You and live for You alone, nothing can separate me from Your love Lord. Lord please train me and build me up like the Apostle Paul, I wanna be like him and Lord if there is permission from You, I want to be more than Apostle Paul. Who cares my body will be saw off by the gentiles one day? In this 5 years, please build me and train me up Lord, use me O Lord God, as I wanna use by You and work with Holy Spirit greatly in my age of 22. Amen

This are the content of the covenant I made with God by myself. No one asked me to do so, but it's my own decision to do so. I saying this not to show-off, but I want to tell the world, I DON'T WANT TO BE A NORMAL CHRISTIAN, NEVER I WILL BE.

V I C T O R I O U S via H O L I N E S S (A testimony of witnessess the mriacle of healing)

Wow...today is just a excellent day after the previous miracle happens in the NS Camp. In the NS camp, I did pray for some other friends during christian fellowship time and they're healed by God, Amen.

And today, after the dancing class, when I'm get ready to go home, suddenly Sarah told me a small boy name Jedadiah is having a high fever and his mom is in class and is unable to walk away to bring him to the doctor, so sad I am in the situation. And when I'm trying to convince the boy to have a cup of water, he just reject me because he already drank 2 cup of water. So I just look at the kid and lay my hand on him, then dun know why, I started to pray for him for healing from Jesus Christ inside my heart quietly (too long to type to view the content of my prayer), and I felt like I'm in a warfare, but I just keep on praying for the boy and suddenly the boy talk to me and agree with me he will drink a cup of water. Then I finish my prayer and he finish his cup of water, as in the same time my hand in on his forehead, I felt that the heat on his forehead, neck and body is totally gone!! The first thought in my mind is, "Why isn't hot anymore? What happen? God heard my prayer and healed him?". And God just gave me an answer right away via the boy and said, "I'm OK now, is not hot anymore."

WOW ! AMEN ?! Yeah !! Amen !! God is the God of healing !! HE is great to be praised for His almighty miracles !!

And I praise God for this....which showing me a mirror that I'm in the days of NS...which my relationship with Jesus Christ...and for me....the definition of ministry is, the relationship betwwen Holy Spirit and I. Amen !

Attracted by Holiness

These days, level of church are lifted up by God greatly since we bought the land in Section 13. Our spiritual authority and status are totally difference than before, and because of that, our Senior Pastor, Reverend Esther Kong have a recipients from God, which is the whole Army of God must be An Army of Holiness. God did not just told Reverend Esther, He also told the servants of God during The Ring of Fire Convergence in Jakarta, via Cindy Jacobs, God Himself review His purpose in this generation, which is the season of a Holy Generation.

And these days, I'm trying to have a breakthrough of my life, to become a saint. I want to become a saint because I know God wants to use a saint. While a saint is used by God, he do wonders and miracles, and God's name, will be glorified. This is the target of my life. And not just used by God greatly, and also the growth of my cell group, the growth of my cell member, the relationships, P&W Team, and also the most important target in my life, to be a servant of God and speech on the international rostrum. Amen !!!

A Trip To Jakarta (Chinese Version)

Paul’s Receive
首先真的很感谢神让我能够有机会去到一个国际性的大型聚会。但是我也相信这是神的安排，让我们GA的青少年能够参与这次的国际聚会，我相信神必定有他自己的心意在我们当中。

当第一天到达Jakarta的时候，我们参加了一个叫作The Call的国际聚会。该聚会大约有五万人聚集在一个Stadium里面一起为着印尼和自己的国家来祷告，这时我心里想，“我们马来西亚几时可以有这么多人一起聚集在Stadium为着自己的国家来哭泣祷告呢？”。接下来有一段时间，有4个小孩面对着会场大约5万人来为着自己的国家来哭泣祷告！其中更有12及10 岁的小孩在当中！他们居然毫无恐惧地面对万人来祷告、哭泣！这让我看见一个单纯向神求复兴，单单定睛在神祷告的祷告勇士！所以我以这群小孩为榜样，他们可以这样渴慕祷告，我们GA的年轻人也一定一样可以！我自己也一样可以！阿门！

接下来第二天我们就进入了在印尼的第二场国际聚会，叫作The Ring of Fire。第一位分享信息的讲员是叫作Che Ann，透过他的信息我学习到一个非常真实真理。When God prepared your destiny, He will prepare a divine appointment for you。这是一个非常真实的真理，而且我相信神必定会在每一个人的生命里面预备一个divine appointment。
接着就是Jerome牧师的分享，当中我抓到一个有关于圣洁的重点就是他分享路加福音13:1-5节的时候，耶稣在短短5节里就说了两次同一句话就是，[你们若不悔改，都要如此灭亡]。就是说我们若犯罪了都不悔改，跟那些外邦人没有分别，同样的必定灭亡。所以我们要非常有智慧，当了解自己犯了罪，便要作一个智慧人，立刻向神认罪悔改，否则罪的工价乃是死。过后陈仲辉牧师就接过了Jerome牧师。他分享了那么多，我最大的感动就是陈牧师对这世代的青少年的爱。他清楚了解这世代的青少年什么都可以为神做，但是最需要得到支持的就是经济上的帮助，所以不论他到哪一个地方，当他有感动要为某个地方的青少年支柱经费的时候，他都会毫不犹豫的鼎力支持。这是最感动我的，因为他非常了解青少年的需要！
到晚上开幕的时候，Pastor Cindy Jacobs在台上分享信息。当晚我的领受就是我们要牺牲我们自己，让神完全的介入我们的生命里面，成为那一个纯洁的火焰。因为当我们这样行的时候，神迹奇事就会发生，因为神必眷顾圣洁的子民。而且当一个纯洁的火焰（蓝火）在燃烧的时候，是吸引众人来到蓝火面前，而不是蓝火自己去焚烧别人。也就是说当我们的生命纯洁得像蓝火一样的时候，就会吸引许多的人来相信福音！所以这就是为什么当我们GA611购地款项达成的时候，神不断的告诉我们要圣洁的原因！因为必有10个人拉着GA611一个人的衣襟说 [我们要与你同去，因为我们听见神与你们同在了。] （撒迦利亚书8：23）

继续下来的领受就是Pastor Tommy的分享。我不知道别人对她的印象怎么样，但是我对她的印象就是，她是一位属灵界里面的军人训练师。当她开始分享的时候，她先表明若有谁不肯接受她所传的信息，就先出去会堂。我最喜欢的就是当她分享什么时候应该做一个羊，什么时候应该做一个骏马。首先她分享一个羊的特质，就是：
• Steady
• Intelligent
• Gentle
• Soft
• Polite
• Unresisting
• Humility
• Obedience
• Powerless
• A strong dependent on shepherd,
• Totally offer it self’s life to the shepherd,
• Depend on the shepherd to rescue while in danger
• To make it self freedom
• To anoint the oil on it face
• To defeat the foes
这就是一个羊的特质，这也给了我自己一个很好的反省，我身为一只羊的时候我到底有没有这样的特质。然后Pastor Tommy 突然跑出了一个问题，打中了我的心，就是“当神叫你的时候，要神叫你几次你才会应呢？”当时我立刻有一个羞愧的感觉。。。
过后她就继续分享一个骏马(Majestic Horse)的特质：
• Royalty
• Impressive
• Highest Rank
• Supreme Authority
• Obedience
• Aggressive while facing demonic power
• Courages
• Energetic
这就是骏马的特质，同时也给了我一个很好的鼓励。鼓励自己成为一个能够被将军骑上阵的一匹骏马。因我们不是与属血气的征战，乃是与属灵的恶魔征战，所以在灵界我要成为一只谦卑受教的羊，也要成为一匹发出蓝火的骏马。阿们！

当Pastor Timothy分享的时候，给了我一个很大的震撼和教导。就是当他说恩膏不是Download而是pass on的时候，我想起我从前时常为着我的恩膏来祷告，求我上位者的恩膏能够双倍的在我身上。。原来，我做了一个严重错误的祷告。当天我立刻醒觉了！原来我这么做是错的！恩膏是要传递，而不是download的！

在Pastor Cindy Jacob最后一次的讲道的信息里面，她跟现在全世界的复兴家讲的是同一个题目，就是“若你要神使用你，就祷告”当然当天晚上她所讲的不只是这样而已，而是有关末日的悔改。但我最大的领受就是若你要神使用你，就祷告；然后就说God use you = hours you pray。我自己本身领受很大，因为我之前不是没有祷告，只是少，但是现在我决定了，要比之前更多地祷告，好叫神能够在我年轻，在耶稣还未来到之前，预备主的道，修直他的路！阿门！

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1. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

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2.Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.


1) If your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
- I would like to answer Bless that person, but it looks quite difficult...

2) If you have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- Rise Up Church !! To the Holy Call !! (sounds familiar? hahahah)

3) Are u sleepy now?
- not really

4) Are u confused with what lies ahead of you?
- hmm....why must I confused since it's a lie leh ?

5) What's your ideal lover like?
- err...those physical thing lazy to tell adi lar...make it simple lor, same vision

6) Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- same, no difference

7) What is the one thing that pisses you off about the opposite sex?
- smoker !!! dislike the most !! and it's not only for the opposite sex !!

8) How far will you go for the one you love the most?
- Eternity =)

9) Is there anything that makes you unhappy these days?
- no ba ^^Y

10.What is your favorite fairytale of all time and why?
- No wor

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Name 10 people to do this survey
Answer these questions honestly~~ ( formalities )
1. Phoebe
2. Louis
3. Phyllis
4. Leon
5. David
6. Kennth
7. Joey
8. Carmen
9. Yi Er
10. Cheryl


1 ) Are you allowed to have a bf/gf?
- Yet to be the time

2 ) Describe urself in one word.
- Hyper

3 ) Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
- someone who really loves me AND THE ONE I LOVE. wakakak !!!

4 ) Have you ever loved someone BEFORE but never had the courage to tell him/her?
- yea of corz, the first time, but no more after that

5 ) Does it feel good to love?
- yea actually

6 ) God is giving u just 5 more minutes before going back to heaven, IF you love someone special what will you say to that person?
- we'll meet again soon, I love you, TaTa !! ^^Y

7 ) What will you say to someone who doesn't want to believe you??
- is ok if you don't believe, but please believe God

8 ) Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
- yeah...always trying...

9 ) What' your opinion about someone who's jealous?
- what to jealous about ?? if you really jealous about, go and have it !

10 ) What can you say about playboys/playgirls?
- childish


[[ * PART 2 * ]]

1 ) Best place to cry?
- presence of God, no matter where the place is

2 ) Who do you love the most?
- Father...

3 ) Tell us ur dream last night?
- no dream wor

4) Ever hated someone so bad?
- yeah...someone who really try to lock me in a cage

5 ) The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?
- err...hehe. dun have


[[ * LAST PERSON... * ]]
:: had a beer with? - i drink Sake, dun drink beer
:: went to the movies with? - my bro n sis
:: talked on the cell phone with? - KC
:: u hugged? - my brothers =)
:: u yelled at? - dog

[[ * IN THE LAST WEEK HAVE YOU...* ]]
>> Kissed sumone? - Nope
>> Sing/sung/song? - yeah !
>> Danced crazy? - yar, dance till I exhausted -.-|||

// Think of the last time u were angry, why were u angry?
- forgot adi luu

// You will go to heaven in 3 mins. Last call?
- can sms ma ? -.-

// If you could do anything OR wish anything, wad would it be?
- stick with Jesus's feet

// Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
- no

// Are you old fashioned?
- no

// What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
- i do not love them back...

// What things would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
- following Him

7 Facts About Me
> Hyper
> playful
> Truthful
> sometimes quite stubborn
> soft heart
> never insult anyone in front of me
> dislike gossips

7 Things That Scares Me
> No
> Thing
> That
> Can
> Scare
> Me
> F E A R L E S S

7 Songs Playing in My Head Lately
> Savior King
> Sanctuary
> Break Free
> I'm Not Ashamed
> Joshua's Song
> I Believe In Miracle
> Holy Spirit Thou Art Welcome

7 Valuable Things in My Life
> Family
> Phone
> "Add Oil" Phone Chain
> My Cell Members
> My Leaders
> Souls
> REVIVAL

7 "First Time" in My Life
1. d first time been catch by teacher playing phone at class. -haha !! never try be4 =)
2. d first time i feel so pain inside my heart knowing tat u lie me. -no bo
3. d first time i feel so happy wit my result. -UPSR
4. d first time i know a girl who has almost same thinking with me. -1 year ago
5. d first time someone wanna hit me. -no one dares to
6. d first time i feel so emo failing my exam for d whole day. -last year
7. d first time i feel so worry about exam. -SPM

7 Words/Things I Always Use/Say
> Cheh
> Haha
> Hehe, not funny
> Yo wat sup
> play what oh you
> what talk u?
> In Jesus Name !!

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Notify the person you tag by sending this link to them and by putting their name on the title of your tag post. You have to tag 20 persons only.

Name 20 people before you answer the questions:
--> Calvin
--> Kar Chun
--> Daniel
--> David
--> Phoebe
--> Joshua
--> Jacky
--> Eric
--> Nixon
--> Lilian
--> Enoch
--> Yi Er
--> Sam
--> Louis
--> Leon
--> Leslie
--> Barbara
--> ZiKang
--> Terence
--> Kenneth

1)What was your most embarrassing moment in your life?
- Dono, never had before .

2)What is worst meal you ever had?
- overnight food ?

3)What one thing make hairs on your back stand up and creep you out?
- something small and with fur . yeeee !! @@"

4)What one movie made you have nightmare after watching?
- Duno oh...long time never watch ghost movie adi, and i never watch

5)Have you ever broken bone or need stitches?
- hmm...5 years time in secondary school broke 7 times lor....

6)What was your worst nightmare date?
- never had before

7)What your worst birthday gift?
- urmm...never had a worst bday gift be4 =)

8)Ever been skinny dipping?
- no

9) Have you ever stolen any thing?
- yar I did be4 I'm a Christian. (I'm good at stealing :X )

10)Have you ever lied to your parents?
- yea....all these thing happen before I know Christ

11)Have you gotten in trouble with law?
- does fighting on the street countable ?

12)Have you ever taken nude photos of self or make sex video?
- who make this question ?

Now is the time. Yet to be the time

Again....the topic sounds familiar..hahaha!! of coz larrr !! A4J's theme marrr !"Now is the Time!!!"
Alright, hold on before getting excited.

So....today is the first day I started my college's life..Well....not bad, knowing some new friends...at least 1 thing is confirmed...I stand my foot in there...learning there....grow in there and....."battle" in there.....
I dun know how should I start my college life in there...should I live like a spiritual man or live like a normal student...well...I believe I will have an answer for this question soon... Cuz I always telling myself that I don't wanna be a normal Christian, Christian that only wait for Jesus Christ's second encounter, juz waiting for the Judgment Day and when handing up the account book, I wanna earn and I dun wanna lost.
And I know I will do something over there......beginning........

Well, were attacked. Yes, I mean it, were attacked. An emotional attack, and it's showed up during dance class. Well, I JHI this kind of feeling, it will make my relationship with the other people get worse, this is no good. Yeah I think she is right, God wants me to learn to control my emotion and not being controlled by the emotion.
Well, feel much more better after we chat on the phone, at least nothing is hidden between us, everything revealed. Hahaha!! This is what FRIENDS mean lahh !! With no thing hidden, any misunderstand or problem, share out and solve it together !! Yeah...I like this way . =D

And another thing is....I realize that now is not the time yet...need lots of commitment and those stuff...really will run me out.... But I'll sure that I'll doing it after my 5 years covenant with God has passed, and then that time, I will search and see whether the time is approaching or not....

I'm here proclaiming that, I am not getting married with the other girl unless she is the one from God. And God is fair, He always let us to have choice. I will not getting married also if the person God prepared for me doesn't love me. Maybe u'll ask, "Eh so how ar? Single forever ar ?" I will answer you, "Yes, single forever. What does marry mean when the one beside you for your entire life is not the one God prepared for you ?". Well, I'm looking forward for an answer for this =)

Synchronizing..........

It's been a while since I update my blog previously....well....still life goes on...
What's in my mind now ? Well....going to coll life soon....have to start planning what to do over there for the Lord...a battle field....or yet still a training ground...ain't know...

Well....felt that we're on Lord's special Ferrari....Lord is driving quick now....miracle happens in GA611....miracle happens on me....prophetic listening has leveled up....the way I share has been into another level...wow....that's so great...thank you Calvin and my leaders so much....although sometimes I found out that I'll have some problem with somebody....but still I decided to forgive....that's what call....LEARN . Everybody makes mistake, even pastor make mistake, even an apostle make mistake, God's children always make mistake, and that's for sure....so why can't we forgive people around us who hurt us ? Well...this is just a simple telling...nothing serious =)

Youth event just over...and this time is about boy & girl relationship. Well, the Taiwanese speaker is not bad, or can say...a not bad counselor . I learn something on that night, RESPECT THE OPPOSITE GENDER. What does it mean ? Respect ? Is it just not to moles him/her or touch, hug, kiss or any others physically touch ?? NO, the TRULY RESPECT is on the MENTALITY RESPECT !! If you said you respect the girl cause u like her, and every day u've been thinking of her, u thinking of her even u're with the other girl, well let me tell u, U'RE NOT RESPECTING AT ALL. Respect is not just respect, but is honor. Well on that night, I learn about this, don't ever and never treat a girl as a replacement ! If you did, this ain't call love no more, this call, A D U L T E R Y

Review of My Life

I don't know how to type my feeling right now....it's harsh for me... But I still have to type it out because it's all for my dearest friends who are lost in Christ and don't know Christ. For you guys sake, I type it out.

Before the days I met Jesus, I live in a life which full of darkness. I got no plan for my life, I got no love from my family, I got no freedom in my life, I live like a bullier in my secondary school, a guy that fight all around like fearless.....and hopeless.

I thank God that via Kar Chun, best buddy of mine, bring to me church GA611 on April 9th 2006, which is my birthday, that day is the first time I went to church. I felt peace and warmth, a family warmth which I never felt before in my entire life. Five days later, April 14th, and also Easter Day, I'm once again invited to GA611 for the church activity, I went, and I accepted Christ on that night.

After that night I accepted Christ, it's also the starting to change of my life. I've once asked my grandmother before what if I turn my religion to Christian, what will you do to me ? What will happen on me ? She just answered me,"You are no longer part of my family." Wow I shock, I dare not to tell her after I became a Christian, until the week before I going to baptist, Holy Spirit touch me strongly to tell my grandmother that I have accepted Jesus. My grandmother just stunned there and look at me, and she said,"OK...up to you, but I won't love you that much like how I used to." On that time I'm just feel like"ok...fine...at least I told you" . But until now, I dare to say out loud that my grandmother really loves me a lot.

After 2 years being a Christian, I realize that there is really really a lot of things I have to polish in my life. A lot of things have to learn and a lot of experience I need to gain. But this is all for my own good !! Thank God for all of it !! Because God loves me, so He wanted to polish my life in to a life which can used by Him greatly !! And this is the purpose why 18 years ago, He save my life from DEATH !!!

This is my first time review, I did not even tell this matter to any of my bro & sis yet, because I just been told not longer ago...
What happened 18 years ago !? I dare to say, if it's wasn't God, I won't be here anymore. I've been told that actually I have 1 younger and elder sibling in my life, but they are being ABORT !! And I'm one of supposed to being ABORT too !! But God has chosen me, He has see me while I'm in my mother's womb ! So via God my grandmother knows that my mother is trying to adopt me secretly so she stops her ! Saying that ," You must give birth to this baby." because according to the Buddhist religion, abortion will deserve curse from their so called god. So my grandmother stop my mom from aborting me, and now, I'm here writing this blog.

So my fellow friends !! Can't you see this ?? How miraculous this is !! Firstly God saves me from ABORTION ! And 16 years later God divinely showing up Himself to me and letting me back to His presence, after that God keep on and keeping on training me up in every circumstances !
Can't you guys felt that you are lucky enough cause you had never experience such a matter in your life ? You're lucky cause your mom did never think of abortion, but this doesn't means that God doesn't loves you ! For God so loves you so you now can sit in front of the computer and reading this blog ! So my friends who are still not believe in God or who are totally not enthusiast for God's Will in this generation ! I BEG YOU ! Believe in Him !! Because He is the God who loves you so much, He is the God who change my life, and since He can change my life, He can change your life too !!

Please say this prayer out or contact me by 016-291 4151

Jesus I come before You, I am here to say that I want to know you more and please come in to my life. Please change my life Jesus, let Your glory shine upon my life and let me have vision and dreams. Jesus I admit that I've sin against You, but I beg for Your mercy, please forgive me for what I've sin before You. Lord I thank you for allowing me to know you more, thank you Jesus. In Jesus name, Amen

Awakening of Paul

Oh great.....have been to A4J, the greatest revival camp I ever go before....and....the Awakening of Paul.....
I'll share what I've receive in this camp...but I'll not share it day by day like how last time I used to share with my friends....

Just 1 simple word, RELATIONSHIP
I always heard from my bro & sis in church and also from my leaders in church said this,"If you don't have a good relationship with people, you won't have a good relationship with God." and ,"How can you love God whom you can't see when you try to love the people around you that u can see?" ..........

Yeah....I agree with what they said but....there is always have something in my mind....the life of Apostle Paul . I started to discover Apostle Paul's life much and much ever since God changed my name into Paul divinely, and I found out that Apostle Paul have not much friends, not in a marriage in his life, not much close friends, but he could build up and strengthen those churches in that time !! But of course ! he have his own partner for the bible says 2 people is always better than alone ! Alright...juz stop be4 I went too far....
Alright, I did not said that I disagree with what I've heard, I agree what they said ! But maybe I'm juz like a little special or something bla bla bla....LoL. Juz kidding =D
But what I'm trying to say is (juz for myself), even I don't really have a great great close relationship with my brother and sister in Christ, doesn't mean that I don't have a close relationship with GOD !! (man I'm now juz feel like wanted to shout it loud)

Can you understand that ?
There is always a reason & proof for my serious word. Juz check it out on my previous post, one of my memory recall. I've clearly wrote there what I've done during my NS camp days. See ? since God done that for me, can u imagine how close is the relationship between me and God ?
And during that time, I don't have a really really close relationship with my bro & sis in Christ. And not close doesn't mean no good ok?

So this time during the A4J Camp. I'm here dare to say it out loud that Pastor Philip Mantofa's relationship with God is as close as the relationship I'm with God in the NS Camp!
I'm not saying that I have the knowledge as he have ! I'm not saying that I have the experiences he had ! I'm saying the r-e-l-a-t-i-o-n-s-h-i-p between God and I !!
So when Pastor Philip preach the word of God, Father spoke to me and show me very clearly that the Pastor Philip is a mirror of myself in NS Camp .

And God keep on showing me those pictures of the days after I back from NS camp, how I sinned before God, how I return back to my comfort zone, how no discipline I am, how rude I am....and most importantly, HOW FAR AWAY I AM WITH GOD....
And after God shows me, I repent. I REPENT !! I REPENT for what I've done and sinned against and before God !
And miraclely God spoke to me and He said,"my dear Paul, for I have a purpose for your name, and you shall be restored. And now, what you have done during NS Camp, the authority and power, will back to you." At the same time, God give me this phrase,

Matthew 16:19
I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven; whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.


And greatly...I thank you Lord for this......really.....a lot....

So guys, have u learn something on it ? See, when I'm in my comfort zone, I keep myself away from God by doing my very own stuff ; When I'm addicted to sit in front the PC, even I got nothing much to do, I still sit in front the PC and din even get close to God;When I'm back in to my comfortable place, I rather lie down on bed nothing to do also don't wanna come close before God and pray before God.....and by this....day by day...time by time....I lose my spiritual power and authority....and faith...of cos...

BUT NOW !! There will never be the same !! Because I make a very very important turning point prayer before God !! And it has been answered by God !! The prayer of repentance !! And after I repent before God, God gives me Matthew 16:19 !
Which makes my both palm burn like fire that day.....But it's all right ! Even if my both palm burn in to ashes, I will not complain anything but smiling before the Lord and says," Thank you for doing this to me, because I know You have Your will and Your will shall be done on earth...and on me."

I felt that I wanna make a prayer in this time, either you have the same past as I been through, or you have left out of God really a long time, please follow my prayer below.

"Jesus my Lord, I come before your throne and I wanna praise you . I praise you for what you've done on me and letting me read this blog in this time, I believe it's your divine appointment for me. In this time I come before Your throne Lord, I repent. Lord I'm sorry for what I've done in the past, for I did not care how You feel, for I hurt your heart so much Lord, please have mercy upon me, forgive me Lord. In this time, I wanna praise You again my Lord. For You love me so much, for Your cross O Lord. Thank you Lord, I believe the blood you shed for me has already cleansed my sin and I'm no longer a left out person. I will keep You inside my heart as You kept me in Your heart. Thank you Lord, in Jesus precious name I pray, Amen."