Another learning of mine.

I had to admit that I'm in such a comfort zone these days until I did not really study the bible. And then today, God Himself touch me and talk to me through His word, He is so real.

John 6:60~69
60On hearing it, many of his disciples said, "This is a hard teaching. Who can accept it?"

61Aware that his disciples were grumbling about this, Jesus said to them, "Does this offend you? 62What if you see the Son of Man ascend to where he was before! 63The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you are spirit and they are life. 64Yet there are some of you who do not believe." For Jesus had known from the beginning which of them did not believe and who would betray him. 65He went on to say, "This is why I told you that no one can come to me unless the Father has enabled him."

66From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him.

67"You do not want to leave too, do you?" Jesus asked the Twelve.

68Simon Peter answered him, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. 69We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God."

From these scriptures I learn a lot and my eyes was open in this afternoon. Suddenly 2 pictures came out from my mind.

I saw a man dry up very quickly who did not stay close to his source.
I saw a group of people who loves God very much in the outside but they're so dry inside.

I have to say this, the man, is me. Yes, it's me. These days when I felt I did not stay clock with my source of life, I do felt my spirit is dry up, really dry up. Until a situation felt like myself is in a desert, looking for a spring. But today Jesus spoke to me via His word, He tells me that live in flesh is count for nothing! And the word Jesus spoke to me, is spirit, is life! And here, Jesus also repeated again that walking in to the gate of heaven, it is a must to have a permission or sort to say enabled by The Father. But in what kind of situation only we are enabled? Which is, a close relationship with God, and we are enabled! Just that simple! As we always heard a slogan which says: There is no relationship between the relationship had nothing to do with the relationship between. (有关系就没有关系，没有关系就有关系) Amen ?

And I doesn't want to simply explain the second picture I saw. But I do have a feeling which is Jesus really wants to say to His people, "Is the word of the Lord offended you? Is it really that difficult to understand or is it really unacceptable for you?" I think we do really have to self-examination. Do we have this feeling sometimes? A feeling which hurt Jesus Christ? We know Jesus always had a great love and mercy on us, but did we hurt Him? Did we grumbling about what Jesus thought us? Well, of course I'm not trying to say we are bad until like this....but at least what I know is, GA Youth, including myself, still have a bigger dimention to improve and know more in the word of God, and this is a positive, ain't negative. Praise God for this!

Must Love but can't fall in love

Jesus replied: "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind" Matthew 22:37

These all days has been really really searching for a greater breakthrough in my life....I don't wanna live like before...the days I just receive the Lord Jesus Christ...it's useless to live in a life without breakthrough...I WANT A GREATER BREAKTHROUGH...

So seems like these days, the power of the first ever life time covenant I made with God during September year 2007 is coming clear....clear...and clear. Since of this, I do believe this power of this covenant will coming to be MORE CLEAR in the upcoming days...

Why do I repeat like this? Reason is because the covenant I made is I want to concentrate on God and just love Him and no others in this coming 5 years, everything for His sake, He is the always the first I care. Care of what? Care of His feeling, God is kind and mercy, He won't get mad on me, but He will sad and cry because of me. Lot of times I did not care about God's feeling and I even hurt Him deeply as I did something really dislikes Him. I felt sorry for what I did before the Lord. And now, I just wanna say, Father, I LOVE YOU..... So since the power of the covenant is clearer now, I found that I couldn't fall in love with other girls anymore.... During the days, I always flirty and the kind of guy like easy going, just go after on whom I interested on. But I found out I can not do that anymore! It not paralyzed about the feeling, it's not bored, it's just I cant !! Which makes me believe this is the time God want to change me and what I must do now is cooperate with God and let His will be done on me. Amen

Content of the covenant made on September Year 2007:
Lord please help me to know you more as you love me deeply. Lord let me die for your name, but I need to trained up by you Lord, I'm weak and Your name is strong Lord. Lord we make this covenant to stand for 5 years, in this coming 5 years, I want to just simply love You and live for You alone, nothing can separate me from Your love Lord. Lord please train me and build me up like the Apostle Paul, I wanna be like him and Lord if there is permission from You, I want to be more than Apostle Paul. Who cares my body will be saw off by the gentiles one day? In this 5 years, please build me and train me up Lord, use me O Lord God, as I wanna use by You and work with Holy Spirit greatly in my age of 22. Amen

This are the content of the covenant I made with God by myself. No one asked me to do so, but it's my own decision to do so. I saying this not to show-off, but I want to tell the world, I DON'T WANT TO BE A NORMAL CHRISTIAN, NEVER I WILL BE.

V I C T O R I O U S via H O L I N E S S (A testimony of witnessess the mriacle of healing)

Wow...today is just a excellent day after the previous miracle happens in the NS Camp. In the NS camp, I did pray for some other friends during christian fellowship time and they're healed by God, Amen.

And today, after the dancing class, when I'm get ready to go home, suddenly Sarah told me a small boy name Jedadiah is having a high fever and his mom is in class and is unable to walk away to bring him to the doctor, so sad I am in the situation. And when I'm trying to convince the boy to have a cup of water, he just reject me because he already drank 2 cup of water. So I just look at the kid and lay my hand on him, then dun know why, I started to pray for him for healing from Jesus Christ inside my heart quietly (too long to type to view the content of my prayer), and I felt like I'm in a warfare, but I just keep on praying for the boy and suddenly the boy talk to me and agree with me he will drink a cup of water. Then I finish my prayer and he finish his cup of water, as in the same time my hand in on his forehead, I felt that the heat on his forehead, neck and body is totally gone!! The first thought in my mind is, "Why isn't hot anymore? What happen? God heard my prayer and healed him?". And God just gave me an answer right away via the boy and said, "I'm OK now, is not hot anymore."

WOW ! AMEN ?! Yeah !! Amen !! God is the God of healing !! HE is great to be praised for His almighty miracles !!

And I praise God for this....which showing me a mirror that I'm in the days of NS...which my relationship with Jesus Christ...and for me....the definition of ministry is, the relationship betwwen Holy Spirit and I. Amen !

Attracted by Holiness

These days, level of church are lifted up by God greatly since we bought the land in Section 13. Our spiritual authority and status are totally difference than before, and because of that, our Senior Pastor, Reverend Esther Kong have a recipients from God, which is the whole Army of God must be An Army of Holiness. God did not just told Reverend Esther, He also told the servants of God during The Ring of Fire Convergence in Jakarta, via Cindy Jacobs, God Himself review His purpose in this generation, which is the season of a Holy Generation.

And these days, I'm trying to have a breakthrough of my life, to become a saint. I want to become a saint because I know God wants to use a saint. While a saint is used by God, he do wonders and miracles, and God's name, will be glorified. This is the target of my life. And not just used by God greatly, and also the growth of my cell group, the growth of my cell member, the relationships, P&W Team, and also the most important target in my life, to be a servant of God and speech on the international rostrum. Amen !!!