Should I breakthrough or stay still for the sake of it?

Been in some kind of situation this days...absolutely not the position of being a Cell Leader, that is job no more but as an identity of a father...

But just these days felt like something I used to have in me...came out from nowhere.. It's been a nightmare to me indeed, I never had a breakthrough on this situation before...as I get hurt deeply on this matter until totally paralyzed, feeling no more towards this kind of situation, really lack of faith on this...But I will never know what will happen if I start to have a breakthrough on this matter..

Maybe something good? Or will like before, paralyzed? I don't know... I used to be fearless...nothing could fear me...but nowadays I found that there is 1 thing that could fear me... That is......

Breakthrough or Stay still?
God...teach me..

Learn to shop!

This morning, mood out of nowhere, go and invite Daniel & Eric to go for shopping at Mid Valley, as I also remembered that I promised I wanna shop with Eric after the camp =D

Then at the mean time, participants increased as Jacky and Hui Yu joined us. Hahaha!! It is niceee shopping today~~

They reach my house at around 11:30 then they wait I go to shower...bla bla....and stuff, then we go and fetch Hui Yu. Then when we reach MV, it's already almost 2. Then we start our "journey" by having Carls JR as our lunch...chit-chat a lot..until almost 3...walao =.="" dunno talk what, lot of things to talk.

Then we go and shop lor, as I wanna buy a coat for myself, just casual coat will good. Then went to Labelsz, G2000, Romp, S&K, Zara, TopMan.....sien, not even 1 is suit. Too bad lar....my size...buy normal T-Shirts or some other kind of shirt may be easy but coat is kinda difficult...but then Eric, Mr. Shopping, intro me to Soda~~ yeah!! I almost forgot there is a shop name Soda! Then I went there lor, walk walk walk...wow? Found a coat not bad wor...quite nice also...dark brown in colour. Most importantly, suits my size leh!! Wahaaha!! Thank God! Finally I found and it is in 50% discount! from 178 discount to RM89!! Hohoho!!

Then after buying that, return to Romp and find Eric lor...who knows when I found him at there, he already decided to buy one set of shirt le...(that felle said he just walk walk and won't buy anything on the car) Zha dao =.="
Maybe "infection" suddenly I go and buy a jeans also leh...as I wanna buy a new jeans as well...so juz go and buy lor...choose lor....choose liao 2 jeans at the beginning, too tight...sien. Then the 3rd one, not bad wor? BUY!! Hahahah!! cost RM89 also....Just like that, I bought a coat and a jeans today. RM200 fly away~~~ 20+ left then makan dinner, almost habish~~~~ hahaha!!!!

Well, once for all, not intend to buy anything high in cost in the coming months...
Nice day I had with my buddies!! =D

We are the end time prophet Elijah!

Book of Prophet Malachi, chapter 4:5-6
["See, I will send you the prophet Elijah before that great and dreadful day of the LORD comes. 6 He will turn the hearts of the fathers to their children, and the hearts of the children to their fathers; or else I will come and strike the land with a curse."]

Just been through a camp that full of the Almighty God's presence. Which is held by our vary own church, GA611 Bread of Life, it is a youth camp. God's presence was just so strong that no one could deny. There are a lot of youth turn their life back to Christ, although there are still people who hasn't believe in Christ yet, but I believe God's love had already take a part of place in their life.

Today which is the last day, I finally found that we do have the hearts of the fathers. My whole group had been together for 4 days and 3 nights, we do all things together, share together, laugh together, pray together, eat together, together together and together!! As I lead them, I found that God had taught me a lesson to learn to have the hearts of the fathers in the end time.

The last session of the camp, it was a sharing among each members in each group. I praise God and thank God that I could see my team members changed from the first day. From we don't know each other, we don't talk to each other, until the end they support each other, helping each other, touched by the Lord one by one, tears fall one by one. Amen!

Until my group members share on stage, both also my beloved members, De Lon and Zhen Wei. I see them both grow in 3 days divinely and seeing them both support and learning from each other. At the end which touch me is, they felt thankful to me. I don't mean to be proud of myself, just God shows me that He had taught me a lesson of the hearts of the fathers in the end time, yes, I learned.

Then when is our turn, the 8 leaders went up on stage to share our thoughts. I have already tried my best to maintain my smileys, to breath deeply every time when I spoke, cause I don't want to cry! I believe the other 6 leaders were trying their best to stay still too. But The second last leader to share, KC, unfortunately, he can't stand and cry out so loud!
Gosh...then 7 of us who was trying our best to stay still can't stand anymore, just release our tension and just cry out loud! Because I knew that we all have the same mind set at the same time!

We miss our members! We love our members! We have compassion on our member! We take them all as our children! We love them!!

We! 8 leaders! Paul, KC, Jacky, ZiKang, Leon, Louis, David, Ming Jun! As I representing them and proclaim! We have the hearts of the fathers of the end time and we will turn our hearts to our children and we do believe our children will turn their heart to us! Amen!

Thanks Daddy on Heaven and Mummy on the earth!!

Hallelujah! I proclaim that the Economy Tsunami won't be a threat to my family!! Amen!!
Hallelujah! Thank God that God has gave abundance life on me and my parents! Amen!!

O.o? Why I said so? Hahah!! Read the post below and you can see how much God loves me and how much my mom loves me! =)

hmm...on last Friday, as my brother got leave on his work, so boring at home so we called mum and go out, then we went to Mid Valley..

Then we walk walk walk... Then suddenly my mind reminded me of what Eric told me, now is the sales season wor....oh yeah...great chance of "masuk stock"....wahahah!!

Then we walk into some shop which we usually won't walk into, because if no sales ar..very expensive de leh. We walk G2000...Giordano...Calvin Klein...Zara...then finally came into SUB... Then we saw a pants not bad wor, is a jeans cut formal pants, eh? the clothing also not bad wor (I can even use that pants to dance on Sunday), then I mai buy lor + a belt....my brother did the same....then the cashier there tell us that the purchase up to RM300 and the next item will have 20% discount. Oh, good, then one of our pants got 20% discount lor. Just like that, SUB earn liao my mum RM480 -.-...

Then we walk again...I ask my mum why don't walk into Jusco, as I know what I want can be found in Jusco...maybe? Then she said:"Haiya, Jusco's thing where can buy one..." I was just like:"oh ok =.=" ....sien

Then dunno why suddenly walk to a shop name called, Timberland. Seriously I been Mid Valley so many times, din't really notice this shop, maybe this shop used to be very quiet? Coz if no sales, their shirt ah...pants ah...shos ah...very expensive de. Then wow? Got sales wor, but then I dun care the shop, coz this shop din't grab my attention at all... Then my mum and my brother went in, suddenly my mum ask me to try a shirt, she said:" Wei, 50% ah, di dao lan(底到烂, Hakka. Means valuable), come try come try." Then I saw a shirt not bad wor, then I go try lor, then buy lor. As I said, those shirt there didn't really grab my attention, so I just buy 1 shirt enough for me. My brother bought 2 shirt, long and short sleeves, but he look nice when he wear it la...coz he thin mar. then 3 shirts which is with 50% discount...RM430. Walao, crazy, dun ever ask me to enter this shop while there is no sales =.=......

Then we balik lor. We count how much we spent while we inside the car, waa....my mum said:"哇。。。你两只野今日tiok左我成千蚊。。" She keep laughing while she say this, we also smile and just keep saying:"Thank you ! Thank you! Hehehehe!" =.=

Then when I go home, I tell my sis, waaa....her eyes also big liao. LoL =.=
Haha...not everytime also like this de la...this is CNY shirt mar...not going to buy any new shirt in few months time...

Then yesterday, which is the main reason why I post this blog. Me, mum, sis and my small little cousin came from Sabah went to 1U. As my sis very hungry..and my brother working at the Digi Specialized Store..then we find him and eat lor. Walao, he work until he is the boss like that, anytime go out, anytime go back. Haha, coz the branch manager there is his long time friend mar, they know each other since form 1 ler....haha, good for him, pity for the company xD
Then we eat at Zan-Mai Japanese Cuisine lor...hmm....next time dun even go there if ur wallet not enough water, there de things ah, small small but expensive. I ordered a Unadon Rice, swt, I tot is a set with soup ah..some Japanese vege ah..and so on. Zha dao, when come, really a Unadon on top of rice. I see liao my reaction was like:"............no more?" Sien ahhh!!
Then the professional eater among 3 of us, Miss Barbara Yap! My sis! Once take up the menu, then just order order order, walao, like already memorize the food list before she came. Sien, when come all liao, waaaaahhh!! Not full at all de loh!! Then we ordered second round.....juz ngam ngam full....my brother also eat until want burst liao =.=

Sien, dun wan post the price, very expensive, 4 adult and 1 12 years old kid can eat until that price. Chi Sin =.=
(My little cousin just eat a Japanese Style Chicken Rice, i also dunno what that called, then full adi, my mum, din eat much as she went on diet. Just the 3 化骨龙 eat a lot. LoL) Happy ! xD

Then after eating my bro went back to his shop...we continue walk walk see see shop shop. Then dunno why walk into MPH bookstore. As I not Daniel Eng, I don't go book store and read books when go to shopping mall xD. Yeah, Daniel End is a smart guy =)

Then suddenly I think that,"Ei? Book store woh, might have what I want here." Then I go find the worker there...and ask,"Do you have Chinese and English version Bible?" Then that guy go and get it for me. Wahahaha!!! Finally I got my double language Bible!!! Which I want it for so long since last year!! Just always got not enough money to buy....hahah!! My mum bought it for me!! Wahahaha!!! it cost RM94 leh...thanks mum!!!

Just 4 days time my mum had already spent around RM550 on me ler..!! So happy leh... But then after this, what my mum going to buy for me is soon a extra expensive thing la...not going to say it out first. dunno what she will buy.
Thanks Mum!!

2 Days 1 Night in Dusun Eco

Wow....it was absolutely a great time I had spent with Calvin's Cell Members...it was totally great...exciting and enjoyment! =)

This is actually a retreat camp for Calvin's Cell Group...and there are total of 10 of us who went this time, no girls, all boys. Hahahah!!!

Once we reach there, Calvin check in and get the room, then we change little bit of our clothing, then guess what? We walk into the forest straight away, without any guards from the Dusun Eco leading us, we just began our first activity like that.

It is very funny on this first activity, we walked in, don't know the path, just try and find out what is the path, and then suddenly Jacky became the one who lead instead of ZiKang, guess what? He lead us back to the starting point -_-|||
Because there are 2 entrance in the starting point, a left and a right, we first enter the right hand side one then came out from the left hand side one. Swt! It was totally swt la....hahaah! But is kinda funny on that scene =D

Then we walk back inside, found the other way to continue our "adventurous", then we saw a sign board giving 2 directions, 1 way is a short path, around 1 hour then it's finish and the other path is the long one, it takes 2 hours to finish the whole journey. Absolutely we choose the long one, and finally take us 2 hours plus to get out from the jungle tracking adventure!

Then the 2 famous "monkey", ZiKang and Louis open the way and lead us, both of them jump up and down, impressed that they don't seems like they look tired. During the path was tough...not easy, and then I believe Calvin's blood is clean and pure and sweet and it's "attractive"! He is the lucky star of the day! Who kena LEECH on his leg first in 10 of us! Hahaha!! Pastor memang Pastor....kena also he kena first...haha! Lucky he brought salt and once the leech kena the salt, it drop and "dancing" on the floor. Then we continue our path, no longer again, Calvin feels some itchy in his socks again. Wow? leech again la!! Waahhh...2 times liao eeehhh...then salt again...then drop and dance....then we continue.. Who knows, just a while, Calvin shout again, walao =.=" sien liao, kena again on his leg, 3 times!! Then that time I think got no salt left or what, the problem solve. Then keep on got ppl kena kena kena....hahaha!!! So funny, I thought I'm the luckiest person who didn't get bite by the leech, so I shout loudly:"Haiya! My skin and blood, leech also cannot bite la!".........Who knows, when we reach the exit, waiting for the others to come, a leech stick on Louis' shoe(lucky him did not get bitten), then I quickly check my shoe also, thank God, there is no leech on my shoe......BUT THERE IS A FAT FAT LEECH WHICH SUCKING MY BLOOD THROUGH MY SOCKS!!! Then I shouted loudly:"WAAALAAAOOO !!!!!" So FAT LEECH like I saw on the television!!! Then that monkey Louis just pluck it away....(because no salt on that time, no choice lo), then the leech gone....but my leg bleed...the blood never stop until the night time sharing still bleeding....sien -.-


But I think KC is the worst among us. Because if the leech bites you, you don't feel pain, and if you sensitive enough, u will feel itchy, like Calvin does. Then FINALLY KC felt something inside his shoe...quite itchy...then when he take off his shoes, thr right leg, walao, u never want this happen on you. 4 leech on his leg and the leech is FAT FAT FEEDED!! Then the leech goes away cause already FULLY FEED, but poor KC's sock has become a "red sock".....really red man.....

P/S: This lesson teaches us, bring more salt when u enter the jungle and...DON'T WALK INSIDE IF IT IS UNNECESSARY!!

Then at night we have our sharing time among each others...it was good, enjoy and finally I can feel back the days before I am a cell leader, so nice sharing each others in the cell group, learn together, grow together, share together, pray together, eat together, stay together, sleep together, talk together, laugh together, and play together!! Yeah!!

Then, I find a childhood feeling over there when I saw the geese. It reminds me of my childhood days in the kampung, I holding a stick and chase the chickens and ducks. It was so so happy.... Then when I saw the geese, it remind me of my childhood....haha...so miss it =D
Not only that, the geese makes me think of a type of KungFu fist, the Crane Fist! When I saw that geese then I make the fist style of the crane(ask me to show you if you dunno and you're interested), then dunno why KC so exciting about the style, he keep on laughing when I do that style =.= kai wan xiao -.-

However, this is a very very good trip I went so far, very enjoy. Of course there are still many activities we went through but I lazy to type la...will never know how long it is if i type it out...haha...

*~Happy~*

Prophet Cindy Jacob's sermon during the Ring of Fire Convergence in Jakarta 2008 (just a 10 minutes video grabbed from YouTube)

Power of Holiness - Cindy Jacob

.....The river of God was pure. Many years ago I had a vision, and I had a vision of God that this river was pure and so beautiful, and I was just enjoying looking at this river. And I saw people come to the edge of the river, and forgive me this is the very graphic thing I saw. But I saw they throw up in the river(vomit), and I saw they throw garbage from their house into the river, and that was completely polluted. And I said,"What is that?" He(God) said this is people's jealousies, fighting against each other, illegal sexual sense, and the church, Idolatry. And nations. And I saw this river flow and I saw the people and the children getting into that river. And they were singing worships songs. You know in my days "I got a river flowing" some kind of songs, "Oh let it rain! Let it poured! Jesus!". And they got into that dirty river, and they were like drinking it and pouring it on themselves, but the river was polluted! But nobody knows, because they used to the taste of pollution. They didn't know what pure water taste like. And this vision I had I saw the body of Christ get out of the river and fall asleep at the river edge, nobody care what it happen to the river. And there is river flow down and i saw tree a side the river. And there was a part of this vision I don't understand until just tonight. I saw fruit on the streets, I realize what the fruit represent, was character, is holiness, is the fruit of Holy Spirit, be patience, is non suffering, is kindness, is holiness. And without holiness we won't see God.

And then after while I saw this river flow, and I saw just a couple of come and build a big water purification plan. I believe, that vision I had is for this moment. I believe it represent your generation. it say:

"We not gonna have a polluted river, we're not gonna drink dirty water, we are gonna clean it up, we gonna love each other, we are gonna walk together in unity, we are not gonna be jealous, we are not gonna sex before marriage, we are not gonna be drunken, we are gonna be different."

And so I saw them build this purification plan. And I saw just a little while the water is coming out from the plan. Very pure. Finally is like Ezekiel 47 it says, out of the temple came pure water. The water came to their knees and the water came so high until they can swim in the water.

And in this vision I began to hear laughter. I saw it is coming from children in the river, and I understand this. Listen to me, the next generation, if you obey God, if you do what God says, you will clean up what my(Cindy Jacob) generation did. And you are going to prepare the children greatest revival the earth has ever seen.
But you have to sainttify yourself. Time of judgment to begin in the house of God. God wants to use you as a chosen generation. He wants you to be part of group that say "Holy Holy Holy who is the God Lord Almighty"(Book of Revelation). Saintify yourself.

And the Lord shows me there is supernatural anointing in this generation to set people free from every kind of addiction. Addiction to drugs, alcohol, sexual addictions, homosexuality, bisexuality, is time to clean up the river, is time to clean up the media. Now I don't know how you follow over here but you probably watch American movies and television. When Madonna kiss Britney Spears, she red her life. There was a spirit of bisexuality that loose upon your generation and lesbianism.

And I want to tell you something tonight, if your generation doesn't rise up, there is gonna be a God's judgment reigns to the earth and unspeakable!

Be Holy, be holy! Saintify yourself! Because tomorrow God will do wonders!


*That is all in this 10 minutes video clip.*
Thank God just only 10 minutes, it take me 30 minutes to do this, hope will help you readers, Amen.

Finally...thank God....

Today, first time leading Worship so long since I lead Praise for a month....
Thank God, this this truly a time managed by God.

Because the days when I was leading praise, I always seek for feedback or comments from my leader, so that I will be able to improve myself. Yeah, thank God that God leads me not bad in praise. But I also receive comment from my Cell Leader, thank God =)

Then tonight, first day IP. David back from Hong Kong and speak on GA Youth, I can feel that his anointing and his spirit has grown up greatly. There are something different during his sermon than before, not a big difference, maybe there isn't any difference in the way he talk. But still, there is difference, and it is good.

Then today the first time I lead worship. Not that I want to lead worship then I told Daniel that I want to lead worship. It's there is a touch in me and Daniel that I wants to lead worship.(Maybe there is a touch in Daniel, I don't know, but when I ask Daniel whether I can lead worship this Saturday or not, he said that he is just going to tell me to lead).

However, just right after the service, IP. David just call all the P&W-per and Emcees go on stage and giving us feedback. What I could say is the feedback and comment is a great impact for me and thank God that God wants me to learn how to worship Him! Hallelujah! Finally my dream have come true! What I always look for, what I always ask for, just right today, God give it to me via IP. David! Amen !!

Then just now when I bathing, God so love me....that He said a word that I don't even understand at the moment.

"Receiving feedback and comments, is another way of compliment."

Thank God....finally I understood what this word means....
Which means, while you are doing good, there is another way of telling you that you are doing good instead of giving you comments.

Hallelujah! Thank God!