A Trip To Jakarta (Chinese Version)

Paul’s Receive
首先真的很感谢神让我能够有机会去到一个国际性的大型聚会。但是我也相信这是神的安排，让我们GA的青少年能够参与这次的国际聚会，我相信神必定有他自己的心意在我们当中。

当第一天到达Jakarta的时候，我们参加了一个叫作The Call的国际聚会。该聚会大约有五万人聚集在一个Stadium里面一起为着印尼和自己的国家来祷告，这时我心里想，“我们马来西亚几时可以有这么多人一起聚集在Stadium为着自己的国家来哭泣祷告呢？”。接下来有一段时间，有4个小孩面对着会场大约5万人来为着自己的国家来哭泣祷告！其中更有12及10 岁的小孩在当中！他们居然毫无恐惧地面对万人来祷告、哭泣！这让我看见一个单纯向神求复兴，单单定睛在神祷告的祷告勇士！所以我以这群小孩为榜样，他们可以这样渴慕祷告，我们GA的年轻人也一定一样可以！我自己也一样可以！阿门！

接下来第二天我们就进入了在印尼的第二场国际聚会，叫作The Ring of Fire。第一位分享信息的讲员是叫作Che Ann，透过他的信息我学习到一个非常真实真理。When God prepared your destiny, He will prepare a divine appointment for you。这是一个非常真实的真理，而且我相信神必定会在每一个人的生命里面预备一个divine appointment。
接着就是Jerome牧师的分享，当中我抓到一个有关于圣洁的重点就是他分享路加福音13:1-5节的时候，耶稣在短短5节里就说了两次同一句话就是，[你们若不悔改，都要如此灭亡]。就是说我们若犯罪了都不悔改，跟那些外邦人没有分别，同样的必定灭亡。所以我们要非常有智慧，当了解自己犯了罪，便要作一个智慧人，立刻向神认罪悔改，否则罪的工价乃是死。过后陈仲辉牧师就接过了Jerome牧师。他分享了那么多，我最大的感动就是陈牧师对这世代的青少年的爱。他清楚了解这世代的青少年什么都可以为神做，但是最需要得到支持的就是经济上的帮助，所以不论他到哪一个地方，当他有感动要为某个地方的青少年支柱经费的时候，他都会毫不犹豫的鼎力支持。这是最感动我的，因为他非常了解青少年的需要！
到晚上开幕的时候，Pastor Cindy Jacobs在台上分享信息。当晚我的领受就是我们要牺牲我们自己，让神完全的介入我们的生命里面，成为那一个纯洁的火焰。因为当我们这样行的时候，神迹奇事就会发生，因为神必眷顾圣洁的子民。而且当一个纯洁的火焰（蓝火）在燃烧的时候，是吸引众人来到蓝火面前，而不是蓝火自己去焚烧别人。也就是说当我们的生命纯洁得像蓝火一样的时候，就会吸引许多的人来相信福音！所以这就是为什么当我们GA611购地款项达成的时候，神不断的告诉我们要圣洁的原因！因为必有10个人拉着GA611一个人的衣襟说 [我们要与你同去，因为我们听见神与你们同在了。] （撒迦利亚书8：23）

继续下来的领受就是Pastor Tommy的分享。我不知道别人对她的印象怎么样，但是我对她的印象就是，她是一位属灵界里面的军人训练师。当她开始分享的时候，她先表明若有谁不肯接受她所传的信息，就先出去会堂。我最喜欢的就是当她分享什么时候应该做一个羊，什么时候应该做一个骏马。首先她分享一个羊的特质，就是：
• Steady
• Intelligent
• Gentle
• Soft
• Polite
• Unresisting
• Humility
• Obedience
• Powerless
• A strong dependent on shepherd,
• Totally offer it self’s life to the shepherd,
• Depend on the shepherd to rescue while in danger
• To make it self freedom
• To anoint the oil on it face
• To defeat the foes
这就是一个羊的特质，这也给了我自己一个很好的反省，我身为一只羊的时候我到底有没有这样的特质。然后Pastor Tommy 突然跑出了一个问题，打中了我的心，就是“当神叫你的时候，要神叫你几次你才会应呢？”当时我立刻有一个羞愧的感觉。。。
过后她就继续分享一个骏马(Majestic Horse)的特质：
• Royalty
• Impressive
• Highest Rank
• Supreme Authority
• Obedience
• Aggressive while facing demonic power
• Courages
• Energetic
这就是骏马的特质，同时也给了我一个很好的鼓励。鼓励自己成为一个能够被将军骑上阵的一匹骏马。因我们不是与属血气的征战，乃是与属灵的恶魔征战，所以在灵界我要成为一只谦卑受教的羊，也要成为一匹发出蓝火的骏马。阿们！

当Pastor Timothy分享的时候，给了我一个很大的震撼和教导。就是当他说恩膏不是Download而是pass on的时候，我想起我从前时常为着我的恩膏来祷告，求我上位者的恩膏能够双倍的在我身上。。原来，我做了一个严重错误的祷告。当天我立刻醒觉了！原来我这么做是错的！恩膏是要传递，而不是download的！

在Pastor Cindy Jacob最后一次的讲道的信息里面，她跟现在全世界的复兴家讲的是同一个题目，就是“若你要神使用你，就祷告”当然当天晚上她所讲的不只是这样而已，而是有关末日的悔改。但我最大的领受就是若你要神使用你，就祷告；然后就说God use you = hours you pray。我自己本身领受很大，因为我之前不是没有祷告，只是少，但是现在我决定了，要比之前更多地祷告，好叫神能够在我年轻，在耶稣还未来到之前，预备主的道，修直他的路！阿门！

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1. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

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2.Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.


1) If your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
- I would like to answer Bless that person, but it looks quite difficult...

2) If you have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- Rise Up Church !! To the Holy Call !! (sounds familiar? hahahah)

3) Are u sleepy now?
- not really

4) Are u confused with what lies ahead of you?
- hmm....why must I confused since it's a lie leh ?

5) What's your ideal lover like?
- err...those physical thing lazy to tell adi lar...make it simple lor, same vision

6) Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- same, no difference

7) What is the one thing that pisses you off about the opposite sex?
- smoker !!! dislike the most !! and it's not only for the opposite sex !!

8) How far will you go for the one you love the most?
- Eternity =)

9) Is there anything that makes you unhappy these days?
- no ba ^^Y

10.What is your favorite fairytale of all time and why?
- No wor

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Name 10 people to do this survey
Answer these questions honestly~~ ( formalities )
1. Phoebe
2. Louis
3. Phyllis
4. Leon
5. David
6. Kennth
7. Joey
8. Carmen
9. Yi Er
10. Cheryl


1 ) Are you allowed to have a bf/gf?
- Yet to be the time

2 ) Describe urself in one word.
- Hyper

3 ) Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
- someone who really loves me AND THE ONE I LOVE. wakakak !!!

4 ) Have you ever loved someone BEFORE but never had the courage to tell him/her?
- yea of corz, the first time, but no more after that

5 ) Does it feel good to love?
- yea actually

6 ) God is giving u just 5 more minutes before going back to heaven, IF you love someone special what will you say to that person?
- we'll meet again soon, I love you, TaTa !! ^^Y

7 ) What will you say to someone who doesn't want to believe you??
- is ok if you don't believe, but please believe God

8 ) Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
- yeah...always trying...

9 ) What' your opinion about someone who's jealous?
- what to jealous about ?? if you really jealous about, go and have it !

10 ) What can you say about playboys/playgirls?
- childish


[[ * PART 2 * ]]

1 ) Best place to cry?
- presence of God, no matter where the place is

2 ) Who do you love the most?
- Father...

3 ) Tell us ur dream last night?
- no dream wor

4) Ever hated someone so bad?
- yeah...someone who really try to lock me in a cage

5 ) The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?
- err...hehe. dun have


[[ * LAST PERSON... * ]]
:: had a beer with? - i drink Sake, dun drink beer
:: went to the movies with? - my bro n sis
:: talked on the cell phone with? - KC
:: u hugged? - my brothers =)
:: u yelled at? - dog

[[ * IN THE LAST WEEK HAVE YOU...* ]]
>> Kissed sumone? - Nope
>> Sing/sung/song? - yeah !
>> Danced crazy? - yar, dance till I exhausted -.-|||

// Think of the last time u were angry, why were u angry?
- forgot adi luu

// You will go to heaven in 3 mins. Last call?
- can sms ma ? -.-

// If you could do anything OR wish anything, wad would it be?
- stick with Jesus's feet

// Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
- no

// Are you old fashioned?
- no

// What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
- i do not love them back...

// What things would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
- following Him

7 Facts About Me
> Hyper
> playful
> Truthful
> sometimes quite stubborn
> soft heart
> never insult anyone in front of me
> dislike gossips

7 Things That Scares Me
> No
> Thing
> That
> Can
> Scare
> Me
> F E A R L E S S

7 Songs Playing in My Head Lately
> Savior King
> Sanctuary
> Break Free
> I'm Not Ashamed
> Joshua's Song
> I Believe In Miracle
> Holy Spirit Thou Art Welcome

7 Valuable Things in My Life
> Family
> Phone
> "Add Oil" Phone Chain
> My Cell Members
> My Leaders
> Souls
> REVIVAL

7 "First Time" in My Life
1. d first time been catch by teacher playing phone at class. -haha !! never try be4 =)
2. d first time i feel so pain inside my heart knowing tat u lie me. -no bo
3. d first time i feel so happy wit my result. -UPSR
4. d first time i know a girl who has almost same thinking with me. -1 year ago
5. d first time someone wanna hit me. -no one dares to
6. d first time i feel so emo failing my exam for d whole day. -last year
7. d first time i feel so worry about exam. -SPM

7 Words/Things I Always Use/Say
> Cheh
> Haha
> Hehe, not funny
> Yo wat sup
> play what oh you
> what talk u?
> In Jesus Name !!

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Notify the person you tag by sending this link to them and by putting their name on the title of your tag post. You have to tag 20 persons only.

Name 20 people before you answer the questions:
--> Calvin
--> Kar Chun
--> Daniel
--> David
--> Phoebe
--> Joshua
--> Jacky
--> Eric
--> Nixon
--> Lilian
--> Enoch
--> Yi Er
--> Sam
--> Louis
--> Leon
--> Leslie
--> Barbara
--> ZiKang
--> Terence
--> Kenneth

1)What was your most embarrassing moment in your life?
- Dono, never had before .

2)What is worst meal you ever had?
- overnight food ?

3)What one thing make hairs on your back stand up and creep you out?
- something small and with fur . yeeee !! @@"

4)What one movie made you have nightmare after watching?
- Duno oh...long time never watch ghost movie adi, and i never watch

5)Have you ever broken bone or need stitches?
- hmm...5 years time in secondary school broke 7 times lor....

6)What was your worst nightmare date?
- never had before

7)What your worst birthday gift?
- urmm...never had a worst bday gift be4 =)

8)Ever been skinny dipping?
- no

9) Have you ever stolen any thing?
- yar I did be4 I'm a Christian. (I'm good at stealing :X )

10)Have you ever lied to your parents?
- yea....all these thing happen before I know Christ

11)Have you gotten in trouble with law?
- does fighting on the street countable ?

12)Have you ever taken nude photos of self or make sex video?
- who make this question ?

Now is the time. Yet to be the time

Again....the topic sounds familiar..hahaha!! of coz larrr !! A4J's theme marrr !"Now is the Time!!!"
Alright, hold on before getting excited.

So....today is the first day I started my college's life..Well....not bad, knowing some new friends...at least 1 thing is confirmed...I stand my foot in there...learning there....grow in there and....."battle" in there.....
I dun know how should I start my college life in there...should I live like a spiritual man or live like a normal student...well...I believe I will have an answer for this question soon... Cuz I always telling myself that I don't wanna be a normal Christian, Christian that only wait for Jesus Christ's second encounter, juz waiting for the Judgment Day and when handing up the account book, I wanna earn and I dun wanna lost.
And I know I will do something over there......beginning........

Well, were attacked. Yes, I mean it, were attacked. An emotional attack, and it's showed up during dance class. Well, I JHI this kind of feeling, it will make my relationship with the other people get worse, this is no good. Yeah I think she is right, God wants me to learn to control my emotion and not being controlled by the emotion.
Well, feel much more better after we chat on the phone, at least nothing is hidden between us, everything revealed. Hahaha!! This is what FRIENDS mean lahh !! With no thing hidden, any misunderstand or problem, share out and solve it together !! Yeah...I like this way . =D

And another thing is....I realize that now is not the time yet...need lots of commitment and those stuff...really will run me out.... But I'll sure that I'll doing it after my 5 years covenant with God has passed, and then that time, I will search and see whether the time is approaching or not....

I'm here proclaiming that, I am not getting married with the other girl unless she is the one from God. And God is fair, He always let us to have choice. I will not getting married also if the person God prepared for me doesn't love me. Maybe u'll ask, "Eh so how ar? Single forever ar ?" I will answer you, "Yes, single forever. What does marry mean when the one beside you for your entire life is not the one God prepared for you ?". Well, I'm looking forward for an answer for this =)

Synchronizing..........

It's been a while since I update my blog previously....well....still life goes on...
What's in my mind now ? Well....going to coll life soon....have to start planning what to do over there for the Lord...a battle field....or yet still a training ground...ain't know...

Well....felt that we're on Lord's special Ferrari....Lord is driving quick now....miracle happens in GA611....miracle happens on me....prophetic listening has leveled up....the way I share has been into another level...wow....that's so great...thank you Calvin and my leaders so much....although sometimes I found out that I'll have some problem with somebody....but still I decided to forgive....that's what call....LEARN . Everybody makes mistake, even pastor make mistake, even an apostle make mistake, God's children always make mistake, and that's for sure....so why can't we forgive people around us who hurt us ? Well...this is just a simple telling...nothing serious =)

Youth event just over...and this time is about boy & girl relationship. Well, the Taiwanese speaker is not bad, or can say...a not bad counselor . I learn something on that night, RESPECT THE OPPOSITE GENDER. What does it mean ? Respect ? Is it just not to moles him/her or touch, hug, kiss or any others physically touch ?? NO, the TRULY RESPECT is on the MENTALITY RESPECT !! If you said you respect the girl cause u like her, and every day u've been thinking of her, u thinking of her even u're with the other girl, well let me tell u, U'RE NOT RESPECTING AT ALL. Respect is not just respect, but is honor. Well on that night, I learn about this, don't ever and never treat a girl as a replacement ! If you did, this ain't call love no more, this call, A D U L T E R Y

Review of My Life

I don't know how to type my feeling right now....it's harsh for me... But I still have to type it out because it's all for my dearest friends who are lost in Christ and don't know Christ. For you guys sake, I type it out.

Before the days I met Jesus, I live in a life which full of darkness. I got no plan for my life, I got no love from my family, I got no freedom in my life, I live like a bullier in my secondary school, a guy that fight all around like fearless.....and hopeless.

I thank God that via Kar Chun, best buddy of mine, bring to me church GA611 on April 9th 2006, which is my birthday, that day is the first time I went to church. I felt peace and warmth, a family warmth which I never felt before in my entire life. Five days later, April 14th, and also Easter Day, I'm once again invited to GA611 for the church activity, I went, and I accepted Christ on that night.

After that night I accepted Christ, it's also the starting to change of my life. I've once asked my grandmother before what if I turn my religion to Christian, what will you do to me ? What will happen on me ? She just answered me,"You are no longer part of my family." Wow I shock, I dare not to tell her after I became a Christian, until the week before I going to baptist, Holy Spirit touch me strongly to tell my grandmother that I have accepted Jesus. My grandmother just stunned there and look at me, and she said,"OK...up to you, but I won't love you that much like how I used to." On that time I'm just feel like"ok...fine...at least I told you" . But until now, I dare to say out loud that my grandmother really loves me a lot.

After 2 years being a Christian, I realize that there is really really a lot of things I have to polish in my life. A lot of things have to learn and a lot of experience I need to gain. But this is all for my own good !! Thank God for all of it !! Because God loves me, so He wanted to polish my life in to a life which can used by Him greatly !! And this is the purpose why 18 years ago, He save my life from DEATH !!!

This is my first time review, I did not even tell this matter to any of my bro & sis yet, because I just been told not longer ago...
What happened 18 years ago !? I dare to say, if it's wasn't God, I won't be here anymore. I've been told that actually I have 1 younger and elder sibling in my life, but they are being ABORT !! And I'm one of supposed to being ABORT too !! But God has chosen me, He has see me while I'm in my mother's womb ! So via God my grandmother knows that my mother is trying to adopt me secretly so she stops her ! Saying that ," You must give birth to this baby." because according to the Buddhist religion, abortion will deserve curse from their so called god. So my grandmother stop my mom from aborting me, and now, I'm here writing this blog.

So my fellow friends !! Can't you see this ?? How miraculous this is !! Firstly God saves me from ABORTION ! And 16 years later God divinely showing up Himself to me and letting me back to His presence, after that God keep on and keeping on training me up in every circumstances !
Can't you guys felt that you are lucky enough cause you had never experience such a matter in your life ? You're lucky cause your mom did never think of abortion, but this doesn't means that God doesn't loves you ! For God so loves you so you now can sit in front of the computer and reading this blog ! So my friends who are still not believe in God or who are totally not enthusiast for God's Will in this generation ! I BEG YOU ! Believe in Him !! Because He is the God who loves you so much, He is the God who change my life, and since He can change my life, He can change your life too !!

Please say this prayer out or contact me by 016-291 4151

Jesus I come before You, I am here to say that I want to know you more and please come in to my life. Please change my life Jesus, let Your glory shine upon my life and let me have vision and dreams. Jesus I admit that I've sin against You, but I beg for Your mercy, please forgive me for what I've sin before You. Lord I thank you for allowing me to know you more, thank you Jesus. In Jesus name, Amen

Awakening of Paul

Oh great.....have been to A4J, the greatest revival camp I ever go before....and....the Awakening of Paul.....
I'll share what I've receive in this camp...but I'll not share it day by day like how last time I used to share with my friends....

Just 1 simple word, RELATIONSHIP
I always heard from my bro & sis in church and also from my leaders in church said this,"If you don't have a good relationship with people, you won't have a good relationship with God." and ,"How can you love God whom you can't see when you try to love the people around you that u can see?" ..........

Yeah....I agree with what they said but....there is always have something in my mind....the life of Apostle Paul . I started to discover Apostle Paul's life much and much ever since God changed my name into Paul divinely, and I found out that Apostle Paul have not much friends, not in a marriage in his life, not much close friends, but he could build up and strengthen those churches in that time !! But of course ! he have his own partner for the bible says 2 people is always better than alone ! Alright...juz stop be4 I went too far....
Alright, I did not said that I disagree with what I've heard, I agree what they said ! But maybe I'm juz like a little special or something bla bla bla....LoL. Juz kidding =D
But what I'm trying to say is (juz for myself), even I don't really have a great great close relationship with my brother and sister in Christ, doesn't mean that I don't have a close relationship with GOD !! (man I'm now juz feel like wanted to shout it loud)

Can you understand that ?
There is always a reason & proof for my serious word. Juz check it out on my previous post, one of my memory recall. I've clearly wrote there what I've done during my NS camp days. See ? since God done that for me, can u imagine how close is the relationship between me and God ?
And during that time, I don't have a really really close relationship with my bro & sis in Christ. And not close doesn't mean no good ok?

So this time during the A4J Camp. I'm here dare to say it out loud that Pastor Philip Mantofa's relationship with God is as close as the relationship I'm with God in the NS Camp!
I'm not saying that I have the knowledge as he have ! I'm not saying that I have the experiences he had ! I'm saying the r-e-l-a-t-i-o-n-s-h-i-p between God and I !!
So when Pastor Philip preach the word of God, Father spoke to me and show me very clearly that the Pastor Philip is a mirror of myself in NS Camp .

And God keep on showing me those pictures of the days after I back from NS camp, how I sinned before God, how I return back to my comfort zone, how no discipline I am, how rude I am....and most importantly, HOW FAR AWAY I AM WITH GOD....
And after God shows me, I repent. I REPENT !! I REPENT for what I've done and sinned against and before God !
And miraclely God spoke to me and He said,"my dear Paul, for I have a purpose for your name, and you shall be restored. And now, what you have done during NS Camp, the authority and power, will back to you." At the same time, God give me this phrase,

Matthew 16:19
I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven; whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.


And greatly...I thank you Lord for this......really.....a lot....

So guys, have u learn something on it ? See, when I'm in my comfort zone, I keep myself away from God by doing my very own stuff ; When I'm addicted to sit in front the PC, even I got nothing much to do, I still sit in front the PC and din even get close to God;When I'm back in to my comfortable place, I rather lie down on bed nothing to do also don't wanna come close before God and pray before God.....and by this....day by day...time by time....I lose my spiritual power and authority....and faith...of cos...

BUT NOW !! There will never be the same !! Because I make a very very important turning point prayer before God !! And it has been answered by God !! The prayer of repentance !! And after I repent before God, God gives me Matthew 16:19 !
Which makes my both palm burn like fire that day.....But it's all right ! Even if my both palm burn in to ashes, I will not complain anything but smiling before the Lord and says," Thank you for doing this to me, because I know You have Your will and Your will shall be done on earth...and on me."

I felt that I wanna make a prayer in this time, either you have the same past as I been through, or you have left out of God really a long time, please follow my prayer below.

"Jesus my Lord, I come before your throne and I wanna praise you . I praise you for what you've done on me and letting me read this blog in this time, I believe it's your divine appointment for me. In this time I come before Your throne Lord, I repent. Lord I'm sorry for what I've done in the past, for I did not care how You feel, for I hurt your heart so much Lord, please have mercy upon me, forgive me Lord. In this time, I wanna praise You again my Lord. For You love me so much, for Your cross O Lord. Thank you Lord, I believe the blood you shed for me has already cleansed my sin and I'm no longer a left out person. I will keep You inside my heart as You kept me in Your heart. Thank you Lord, in Jesus precious name I pray, Amen."